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Watching The Mountain

Be Tween Us, the bear trap

came out of nowhere trap

Ouch . . . babies .


I no longer want to text Him  [ i did because it was good for us, i think ]

I still want to measure my worth.
or do i . . . ?
okay . . . . close to 5 years i guess . . .


Listening to New Birth in New England,

I do not remember hearing it; this may be my first time.

I like it is nice . . . babies


I took some pills and drank robo tussin.

I have been drinking sweet cold black tea.

I like it.

I feel a buzz. I hope my mom does not worry about me.


I Heart Huckabees was on a few hours ago.

What did I want to share about that . . .


Any way

Mom has been crying

and frustrated

talking to Insurance people

on the phone

and learning she might need to pay

about 4 thousand dollars a year

for her diabetes medications.


Listening to Send in the Clowns - Mark Kozelek, very quiet.


I hope we watch two or three episodes of Baskets tonight.

I just rememberd that Mom is going to the Open House

at her grand children's elementary school.


I want to stay home and be alone.

But I really

do not want to let myself Degrade, Devolve

and watch or listen to

Bad or evil

content on line . . .

or just get lost

in my Fantasy

Life

of Eternal Pleasure . . . i guess . . .

in . . . sanity.

I just want perfect self-control. To be positive, productive, respectable, respectful, loved, at least lovable . . .

loving . . . reasoning . . . reasonable . . . rational . . . godly . . . ascending . . . Aaron, our friend . . . our friends . . .

So good . . . so correct . . . so relax... . . . books . . . my body . . . souls . . . Real De Tails  -


Oh yeah,

It was Brad's poem on I Heart Huckabees

I had to write something

I may as well share

my innermost fears

of helplessness

and hopelessness

and cheer { - :

Why

Did

You . . . ?


You say

I say

No one

I am going to be Okay

Some Day

Again . . .

Jees

THis

may be too long

To Read

I love you.

Everyone.

Yes

I am

in dulgent

.

okay

good bye

for real

God love us


-

Greg . . . .     sighh   .   .