Sunday, July 29, 2018
Friday, July 27, 2018
Now, it is 12:46 PM, and I'm at my house.
I was lying in bed last night, thinking of my family coming for a birthday party this weekend, then I remembered that I have been spending the last 8 months at my mom's house, and I should have gotten a job by about 6 months ago. People wonder, what have I been doing?
I don't know. I've been listening to Dear Hank and John, about 40 episodes the past week. I like it.
I want to shower in the next 2 hours. I guess it's been about 5 days.
My mom will get home in about 2 hours. We will go to HEB and recycle stuff at the elementary school.
I wonder what shirt I will wear.
I excuse myself.
You got a story.
I just texted Aaron, asking what they are doing on or for Andee's birthday. He replied, "Nothing. [:" - I thought about it for a bit, then texted, "All right (:"
ok bye
Friday, July 20, 2018
I Distill. Leonard Cohen. Biography. Morning Walk Song
Nineteen
19 People
The Name of the Forest
The Name of the Forest
Sun.
Sun.
Sun.
ss.. nn..
I
need
to
drive
to
the
house
of
my
friends,
be-
cause
they
invited
me
to
a
birth-
day
par-
ty.
I
plan
to
stay
for
two
or
three
or
four
hou-
rs.
What
are
your
plans
be-
fore
and
af-
ter
the
death
of
each
per-
son
and
why?
Tuesday, July 17, 2018
Functional Human Brain
After We Die
Before We Grow
Functional Human Brains
Before We Die
After We Grow
Functional Human Brains
The Crest
of a Forest
with a View
of the Air
Natturlee was born at 2:30 P.M. on West 44th Street at 2:30 P.M. The next dawn, the shiny silver 30-story building warm 33 degrees. Mother, 29 years old, and Father, 39 years old, take the walk down into the food and drinks place, where the walls diet, die and relax, 52 weeks a year, for 50 years and 4 weeks ago. That's why Mister Weshpeer modeled some Takings, Molds and Modes, Fluorescent Lights, and Galvanized Magnet buses and ferries, so that is what is was.
To BE Continued
Monday, July 16, 2018
Your Best Attention
Don't forget.
Don't forget
and you won't be forgotten.
I won't let
you fall below the Horizon.
If your God
is the only path
to a brighter tomorrow,
say that you will
be the same,
take all that you got,
get it all in Good order
and give it your best attention.
Dreams
In a fantasy land, I sit at a large round white conference table, all the seats filled with men.
Trump sits to my right, a short-brown-bearded husky middle-aged white guy to my left.
Someone gives a shot glass filled with alcohol to each man at the table, going around more than once.
One round is an orange-juice-like drink.
People encourage me to drink each shot that I am given and I do.
It's like a convention and people are trying to promote their alcohol with free samples.
After being given a whiskey type drink, Trump says Two and holds up a peace sign.
The server hesitates, since they are supposed to give each person only one.
Trump says Two again, motioning his fingers, like he expects to get what he wants, like he is special.
Everyone around is awkward, expecting the server to make an exception, then they do.
I drink two of the same kind in a row.
There are 8 or more shots in front the guy to my left, somehow I get the idea that each shot represents a letter in 'Star Wars' . . . .
Saturday, July 14, 2018
This Is for You
Hi, you.
I am glad that you are here with me now.
I am listening to Sunday Roast by Courtney Barnett.
I listened to part of the album Tell Me How You Realy Feel... just before.
I like it a lot. I probably like all of her songs, at least a little. I like Courtney Barnett as an artist and person.
Kurt.
Nothing hurts... Sometimes a lot.
I drank two white wines in the past few hours, a sweet and a dry.
I am a little ashamed. I want to drink all the wine.
I keep thinking of buying coconut rum. My mom bought some about a month ago. I drank most of it.
I was just reading some Edward Gorey.
I am anxious, waiting for my mother and her cousin to get back to this house... any second.
Mom got me a taco from Torchy's.
Patrick texted me, asking if I want a taco.
I guess Mom's phone died.
I requested a migas taco.
We walked and drove around Bastrop...
I felt anxious about myself and what I should do, alone in this house... again today.
I feel better.
Often I tell myself I don't care. About whatever or everything.
Oh yeah, I want to take a walk now.
B right b ack. I will probably continue this soon after I get back from myy walk, if I really go...
Okay, now.
That was fun.
Mom, Tiff, and I just walked for at least 30 minutes, the usual, Sanders Estates.
It was pretty dark.
I walked Cutting Horse alone.
I paused near 1441.
There was a sliver of moon shine in ...
I love that experience.
I talked to myself... almost all the time.
I almost cried.
I remembered 'What is best in life?'
I guess I prefer to start sentences with the letter or word 'I'
Of course, I know that I could have made better decisions.
I decide to stop thinking, then do whatever feels good enough
at the moment.
Help Your Self by Courtney Barnett is on now.
Walking on Cutting Horse, I thought that alcohol makes me happy.
Obviously. But I probably have a problem...
Only occasionally though, since I have almost no money.
I am sure that I should just go to sleep, in a few minutes.
Floss, brush.
I should read instead of typing this.
There are several works I know I should read.
Sleep is the best for me now I am sure.
I have heard/read that Sleeping is a problem for millions, maybe billions of humans.
It is Strange that it seems that
Tiffany staying at this house too
Has had a profound impact on me.
Mom just discovered I drank most of the wine.
I was embarrassed and awkward for a few seconds.
She called me a Lush... mostly playfully, jokily I guess.
I have to stop...
So many times, I have thought, I just want to do nothing... except think...
then, I think, I will just do what is well-thought-out, reasonable, responsible, necessary, best for me...
But I have almost never done that.
Okay
Good bye
now
!
Every Day Schedule for Greg Wredberg
1. Get up at dawn. Or after 8 hours of sleep.
2. First 30 Minutes: Walk outside. Stretch / do Yoga.
3. Write dreams, or anything, at least 1 page.
4. First Hour: Maybe clean self. Eat good breakfast. Floss/brush teeth.
5. Rest of morning: Read.
6. Around Noon: Eat good lunch.
7. Write.
8. Read something else.
10. Eat good last meal. Floss/brush. Clean/wash.
When i wonder what to do i will do one of these things i can do every day to live well:
- examine my body, feelings, thoughts, acts
- meditate, yoga, workout, walk, jog, work on breath, posture, appearance, openness
- eat healthy, protein, egg, yogurt, nutrients, fiber, veggies, salad, all natural, responsible, morning, noon and when i am hungry
* read books - research - reflect - reflect - write - appreciate art, music, movies
- plan good life
- be practical, rational, generous,
* respectful
- check in
- Repay
Notes, "Our Home School Mission Statement" (by Aaron) 7-13-18 17:18
Schooling -- habituation to theoretic consciousness - Maths -
Spiritual aspiration - enlightened wonder - in Love with God -
Fulfill conscious intentionality - Notion of Goodness itself
Be more than human
As good for good itself.
Is what I am doing worthwhile?
Yes. I go on, Strain of Finite Achieving.
After School
Assimilate Abstractions
blunt blush bulk
congregate, collect, culminate
derive decline distractions
elevate equality earnest
foster fullness focus
goal-orient grown gullet
honey holistic home-spin
integrate island, Icons.
jolly joke jewish kind
kinfolk kismet
last longing loquacious
men memory muster
nuns new number
open orange Omnipotent
perfect purpose purple
ricing reason road
surveying success senses
timing trust tally
useful ultimate ubiquitous
vacancy valuing venerable
women
walking washing wake
x-it xenomorphic x-cite
yoke You-n-I-Verse
con, vex, Yinyang
Zilent Zuper Zeven
. . .
.
Ever-Present Goal
Because we can,
Humans should think and act
Towards the ever-present goal
Of always creating a better future.
By better I mean
Every being can
Experience ever-increasing
Friendship, delight, hope, joy,
Understanding, grace, beauty, love
And all the other Good.
Friday, July 13, 2018
Journal
Hey.
3.
Tiffany is here at 139 Michele Drive, Bastrop, Texas, US of A.
I just started a 2nd glass off Riesling.
It is 22:16.
She and my mom are watching Sharp Objects, episode 1.
I wanted to play Escape Goat online a minute ago, but the internet is too slow.
I am sitting up on my bed, pillow on my lap, tablet atop pillow.
I read about half of the homeschool mission statement that Aaron emailed me. It's deep; I like it.
I am going to Aaron's in 9 days for Malakai's birthday. I'm nervous but glad for the opportunity.
I saw Aaron and Andee at HEB yesterday. It was fun. Mostly Aaron and my mom talked.
2.
I am super ridiculous because I spent so much time making decks on tappedout.net.
I wasted most of yesterday.
I kind of watched and listened to Jesse and Dodger play Life Is Strange: Before the Storm.
It makes me smile: I feel cozy and childish and love and forgiveness and easy eternity.
1.
One sentence: tomorrow we breakfast at Maxine's, then farmer's market, then I'll stay home.
Computers.
Words.
People.
One Page.
Light.
Fire.
Heat.
Electrons, Quarks, Energy
Poop
Eyes
Rocks, Dirt, Water, Metal
Trees
Animals
Space
Time
Exact
Definition
Perfection
Is and Not
Eternity
God
I am Myself now
Here, I wonder. What will I do after I save this Document , Is this worth it , I should read it or
sleep ? Now . This is the end . I have about 20 or 30 more spaces for these letters . I love you
Good Bye
yes
Friday, July 6, 2018
My Gracious Goodness
Need to Think, which how is the most the time now to become what they need.
Number one, I am sitting typing this 139 Michele Drive
Uhh, almost Sweet potatoes and pork chops.
Uhm, TV on the Living Room, my Mother.
Number two, My brothers, and other family and friends, eating and talk or text, plans and futures.
Number 3. Hmm, Leftovers, Rectify, Good posture, Sleep, Work, Chores, Good body and hygiene and Love and Sex and Memories and People of the
Shapes Lines Textures Thoughts Pressures Weights Motions Lapses Lacks Bends Truths Drops Measures Colors Comparisons
number 4our
I should try to fix the
Soil, Earth, Atoms, Charts, Diagrams, Responsible agenda schedule curriculum, foreseen,
i mean I need to
organize, optimize
particle, pattern, Reasonable, Lofty
I wan a wife [ i wanto live a loving life with a loving spouse , maybe not , i got to do a lot. ]
man woman
on floors
right on time
Correct
Lands Roads Wheels Walls
Elbows Feet Fabric Mandible Stores Kitchens
Again Finally
All right, now I will tell you what I should do now
I will take the star
Metaphor
Good Grave
No waste
Make the person stand up straight
No cry, no fake smile or laugh
He could fight and save your Life
What is Realistic though
I understand Statistics and Economics
Just Water up there
A better whole Circle
Number five,
I am going to sleep in ten to twenty minutes
My ma has had a bad head ache
I read most of a New Yorker article about Pain research
Science Medicine
Unnecessary
Over-Reach
I focus on my Now.
I am itch scratch Computer Wet Sweat Heart Blood
Eyes, Vision, Muscle
Fatigue
You done know where you are
Little noise
Constant
Why and How
Why who?
All this to ask what?
I found the order.
The order of the order
The necessary What
Maybe throw away the candy
Realize
A pretty big house
A larger number of orfans
Practical infinite space light
Life growth
Inward growth
Perfection of Knowing
Control
Fit and belong
adapt evolve
Slow flow
water food
Appropriate
Like a guy I saw on a street
On a screen
Clean
Neat
Hair face Nice
Ready for anyone
The end i guess for this
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