One Hundred Truths

1. I like to type.
2. Mom is watching TV.
3. I go outside barefoot.
4. I leave the door open
5. I drink vodka, tequila, and red wine between 10:00 and 13:00.
6. I am listening to These Days by Nico on my YouTube playlist on TV.
7. There is a photo of Margot and Richie Tenenbaum on the TV.
8. They are played by Luke Wilson and Gwenyth Paltrow.
9. I saw a preview for Isle of Dogs in a theater.
10. I saw Three Billboards outside Ebbing, Missouri in the theater.
11. I think it's okay.
12. I am listening to my YouTube playlist called Soft.
13. It started about 20 minutes ago.
14. i want to finish a new yoker fiction story called Likes.
15. i am listening to Small Poppies by Courtney Barnett.
16. It is 17:12, December 20th, 2017.
17. I think there is about an hour of sun light left today.
18. Now I listen to Group Autogenics II ... again...
19. I like it like it is the only thing to like, like liking is the most life-ful like to ever be like, I like.
20. I really want to talk with Stacy Watkins again. 
21. I miss her.
22. I miss how i was.
23. This song (Group Autogenics II) was posted on YouTube on July 23rd, 2010.
24. Now I listen to Careless Soul by Daniel Johnston.
25. I want to be care-full. 
26. I wonder when Daniel Johnston will die.
27. I wonder what he is doing right now.
28. This tablet is on top of an empty box for Community Coffee K-Cups, Breakfast Blend.
29. I emailed James Duffy today.
30. I am very proud of that.
31. I think I should call a lady about volunteer gardening for Bastrop County Food Bank. 
32. I told Aaron I would call her today.
33. Mom thinks I should be looking for a job.
34. I will take a walk in a minute.
35. A Springbok ASMR video about Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs came on a few minutes ago on my Favorites list. 
36. I walked on the street for about three minutes.
37. i watched Kids in the Hall on Youtube for about 15 minutes.
38. I want to burn something.
39. i want to feel better, maybe I would if I did something.
40. i want to kiss a pretty person, like some people I know.
41. i want to sleep for 8 hours straight.
42. i listened to most of the new harmontown today.
43. i skipped a part when they talked politics.
44. i like my teeth and mouth.
45. i like my eyes a whole lot.
46. i woke up early the past two mornings and stayed awake...
47. mom came home about 15 minutes ago.
48. she is making garlic bread for us to eat in a few minutes. 
49. she turned on the tv.
50. christmas vacation is on again.
51. she just laughed at a line.
52. i smiled, partly because the movie and partly because mom.
53. I am at home, I drove back after taking Mom to work. 
54. I think i want to tell her I came home.
55. I had no plans other than I was going to stay in Austin, then go see Downsizing with my family.
56. I did not sleep enough.
57. I got in bed today.
58. I listened to asmr and watched crap sex videos.

1. It's a few weeks or a month later.
2. I put on a video by Yoga with Adriene on the TV in this house.
3. I can tell I want to do better with life and stuff things I think.
4. I drank some wine and cointreau.
5. It is 1:51 PM.
6. I started drinking about 1 PM I guess.
7. I baked a frozen Digourno supreme pizza.
8. I feel a bit in love with Adriene, from Yoga with Adriene.
9. Mom and i walked for about 15 minutes in our neighborhood today. 
10. it was cold
11. it was fun
12. i like my mom
13. i love smiling
14. i love laughing
15. i love anyone
16. i love anyword
17. i just made up the word anyword a few minutes ago.
18. i was just thinking of a philosophy of being called American Yoga (or anyword)
19. I was just listening to Adriene and trying to exercise and stretch my body
20. and I enjoyed it so much and it took so much of my effort
21. and i stopped and felt somehow sad and overwhelmed and started to cry and smile and laugh and say words loudly
22. I put on the True 30 Day Yoga Journey on YouTube.
23. Day 2: Trust is on.
24. I am being difficult 
25. i just tried explaining to myself what is happening when I lose focus or willpower
26. i want to slow dance, interpretive
27. i want to listen to Stillness is the Move...
28. i just put on a cover of that by Solange
29. i love dancing
30. i think i prefer the original, but i am very glad this cover exists, but maybe the dirty projectors made a cover of solange, but i think it is a dorty projectors original cuz it's a weird kind of song.
31. Here is a bogglegame:             pine                 nine               pens                pint           bean                bane                short                       batten                    better            batter                fine               ruin                   pent 
32. I like teh song Celebration by Hotel Books a lot.
33. I heard it first last night.
34. I avoided sleeping. it felt difficult.
35. I think I am better this way.
36. it feels so strange and pointless to wonder how things if different choices were made.
37. but if we realize that we would have done better to do something different, then it is useful for future decisions, to not repeat mistakes...
38. i just listened to WOW by Beck for the first time is maybe over a month.
39. Now If Life Exists? by Jeffrey Lewis is playing. I like it too.
40. I guess I only have three more truths to type for these 100 truths... I really want to read someone else more than anything.
41. Fuck.................. One of the most ...must... emotional songs of my life so far is Playing Now.... It is For the Actor by Mates of State.... It is so Fuck in God dim beautifull Full of Everyone... For ever... near bye now, hello
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