So...

I made all the posts back into drafts.

I had to hide words to fix things.

Because I was selfish and didn't think I would hurt anyone's feelings.

I used people's full names, and I should not have.

"A" called me when I was in a condo in Port Aransas.

I did not answer. I think he called 3 times. I called him back.

It was one of the most uncomfortable and embarrassing conversations I have had.

It was mostly about him and her reading this blog.

I have done a lot more dumb bad things since. I am sorry. I need more respect [for everyone]. I need more conscience and reality. [ need to pay attention ]

I guess I can post this.

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I have been listening to the best of Grand Buffet on youtube for about an hour.


I have been drinking a lot of alcohol.


I have some rather serious problems with myself ... my consciousness, my reasoning, and my belief.


I feel really bad about not going to the classes that I started.


My mom said I could live with her and she will support me, if I get an associates degree, then a job.


I just did not feel like going to class...


so I did not.


I walked or drove and listened to the radio or podcasts. I sat in the library. I wrote. I read. I ate junk.


I wonder if I can start doing work and going to class and pass.


Because I may have missed too many classes.


Yeah


I just need to to do physics homework........


But I think I will not...


I want to, though.


I should sit on a chair.


Now I sit.


I will open my physics homework web page after I end this sentence.

I did that.

I will do homework. I will think and try until I understand what I need to to pass the class.


I did three problems....


I've listened to Human Milk on MySpace, off and on for about an hour.


P O S S I B L E


I watched a bit of Highway to Hell on Nat Geo this morn. I liked it a lot. I almost cried. Family. Alaska... or Washington or Canada...


I have 3 hours to sweep the porch, as Mom asked me to do.


I had planned on beginning earlier today.

A person came to mow our lawn today.



I am listening to Beta Band Spotify radio... real good... Alex texted me, asking what I am doing. In my last text to him, I asked if he has time to hang out with me tomorrow.

I hope I go to see him tomorrow.


All I ate today was Ramen noodles, picante chicken flavor, with butter.


It is a bit after 3:30 pm.


I have 5 more days off. I forgot for a bit that I have no class on Tuesday.


I think I should go to Austin with Mom anyway. I can visit a tutor and try to catch up on Physics.


I am unfocussed to an unhealthy degree.


I had a cup of coffee in the past hour.


I think I want to eat something soon.


Mom and I ate HEB pizza last night.


We watched an episode of The Knick.


I drank and took a walk to the top of the hill on Cutting Horse.

Then I got in the hot tub.


I need to go back to my homework.


{: Do not be false. Do not fall off the mind of God.

Do hold the hands of human ideals and forage the massive fruits of physical labor.


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