This Morning, Time is Careful

Listening to episode 19 of The Pod F. Tompkast. I feel the need to listen to his voice. I woke up for the last time about 15 minutes ago. I skipped the word "die" in my last post. I have been feeling suicidal lately, but more so I've been thinking about suicide. It made me laugh last night. We had a lot to do at work and it was getting late, so I thought, I don't want to do this, I'm going to kill myself, then I felt better and took work less seriously. Tim is playing WoW loudly. He was at Casey's for a while and came back with games. I was pretty hungry and I decided to eat Totino's pizza rolls last night. I did and they tasted pretty good, but I'm ashamed. I also ate ice cream. Hmm.

Some disgusting folded toilet paper stacks with brownish stains on them. Terrence from work figured out that someone's girlfriend, like Tim's, not Chelsea, had wiped her vagina on them and given them to Tim I guess it was as an erotic keepsake. (I think Pat and Bridgett showered together last night after I got here, and Tim and Chelsea did last weekend as I watched a kid's show with Asher. Last night when they went into the bathroom I thought how disgusting it is to me.)
I am at a woodland mansion. It's almost like a secret military complex. There are lots of official men there. There is a canyon and hills. Everything is brown or mossy. There are pipe and tunnels and grate and gutters. There is some complex game happening. There are lots of green M and M's stuck in the pipes. Or something small and round. Guys use long bendy sticks to unstick them. I leave and walk over to the front of the mansion. There are nice compact courtyards with viewing benches. It's a little too enclosed for me. I think there is a front wall. I go inside and I am in the kitchen. It's pretty big. I start to open cupboards to find food. A butler opens a rotating cupboard and spins it to show me what's inside. On the bottom there is a wide roll of butcher paper, and when it spins it looks circular because it's spinning so fast it blurs together. I don't see anything else. I don't remember more.

Bye!! I am going to be my best! See ya Tomorrow!