It All Happens

Hi, my name is Hezikiah,

if you watch it all happen,

it will go so slow

you can never tell yourself

if you are watching ... or

what is happening.

Stead Fast

Sensual Pigeons

So grey and lady-like

Horses come to their senses

Why do we still say , Live Your Life . . .

It gets easier after the end.

Stay close by . . .

Always . . .

Only way is to

Do what we say

. . . Stand For . . . Friendship . . .

McCarthy T

renching

Peace and Health and Death

Talk to you

Later

by little

Close

the browser

like right now-ser.

{-: . . .

Reply to Juan, Internet Is Great

"
Was there something awesome you found that inspired you to post this? I'd wanto know about it [: Internet is almost synonymous with the World, for lots of us probably. It's like 'This is water' . 'Eighth Grade' is a nice movie. Sorry, i ramble {;
"

Do you find some thing awe some , that inspires You to post Your Awe ?

I want to what the know is Your Inspiration . . . .

1. I want to fly to a big house
2. for ten minutes, like Peter Pan,
3. somewhere pretty
4. and close to pretty people
5. doing nice things
6. where we can get anything
7. we want or need
8. within 20 minutes,
9. like utopia Los Angeles.

1. I want to hang upside down
2. for 5 or 10 minutes,
3. and I want to sleep
4. for one third of my life.
5. I want to be eternal,
6. like afterlife and Heaven
7. with Jesus and such,
8. like Defending Your Life,
9. vacationing, comfort,
10. expectation, rest, hope.

1. I want to hold a person,
2. lay down, smile, breathe.
3. I want to hug another person,
4. like my best friends,
5. like the perfectly famous
6. people, liquids, bodies,
7. and I want to smell
8. and sleep again. Is it all
9. too heavy? I want to be a
10. wonderful person, and I want
11. all people to feel good forever.

--

I've listened to Dear Hank and John for a few hours today. The internet stopped working ten or 15 minutes ago, the screen says "LOADING"

I ate a bunch of stuff today. Not as much as I have on some days.
--
It's later now, about 5 PM. I've listened to about an hour of Harmontown. I drank about a glass of red wine, and I am drinking another half a glass. I guess my mom will be here in about an hour.

I am drinking more wine.

I want to read I'm Your Man: The Life of Leonard Cohen now.

bye.

This is tomorrow.

I maybe read 1 or 2 sentences after I typed that about the Cohen book.

I been listening to more Dear Hank and John. It stops to load every few seconds.

I just flossed and brushed my teeth.

It is 3:25 PM.

My mom is at her retirement party at the library. She'll be done working in a couple hours. Maybe forever.

Anagrams of Gregory Douglas Wredberg

L

GOD

GREW

RARE

RUGGED

BOYS

-

GOD

BREW

REAL

RED

SOGGY

RUG

I Will Be a Light

I miss walking all around South Austin
and sleeping alone all of every night.

I wish I were a Dynamo, sexy and clean for eternity,
saying to God, Please, do not worry about me:

I will be all light
I will be alight
I will be a light.

Do you wonder what becomes of all the things we wear?
I can sweat like a monster. I can dry off on the air.

I run my body into the ocean.
Does it All feel like it's still there?

Me and My Mom's Retirement, Days 1 and 2

2.

Safety Protrusion

Put your neck down

Tie your body to the ground

1.

Wal-Mart

Smooth Mouse

The news is coming out strong

Sports Team

Soul Exchange

The don't of they every

Is the Prove of them being.

Justice brushed my hear purest

Intellect earned who skill mitts.

Hio grow tea Easter of then skin

Whyn't port sun bring a knot

Yes por favor him which to fly

I said from that certain but there

And we did So To now do . . . .

Now, it is 12:46 PM, and I'm at my house.

I was lying in bed last night, thinking of my family coming for a birthday party this weekend, then I remembered that I have been spending the last 8 months at my mom's house, and I should have gotten a job by about 6 months ago. People wonder, what have I been doing?

I don't know. I've been listening to Dear Hank and John, about 40 episodes the past week. I like it.

I want to shower in the next 2 hours. I guess it's been about 5 days.

My mom will get home in about 2 hours. We will go to HEB and recycle stuff at the elementary school.

I wonder what shirt I will wear.

I excuse myself.

You got a story.

I just texted Aaron, asking what they are doing on or for Andee's birthday. He replied, "Nothing. [:" - I thought about it for a bit, then texted, "All right (:"

ok bye

I Distill. Leonard Cohen. Biography. Morning Walk Song

Nineteen

19 People

The Name of the Forest

The Name of the Forest

Sun.

Sun.

Sun.

ss.. nn..

I

need

to

drive

to

the

house

of

my

friends,

be-

cause

they

invited

me

to

a

birth-

day

par-

ty.

I

plan

to

stay

for

two

or

three

or

four

hou-

rs.

What

are

your

plans

be-

fore

and

af-

ter

the

death

of

each

per-

son

and

why?

Functional Human Brain

After We Die
Before We Grow
Functional Human Brains

Before We Die
After We Grow
Functional Human Brains

The Crest

of a Forest

with a View

of the Air

                                   Natturlee was born at 2:30 P.M. on West 44th Street at 2:30 P.M. The next dawn, the shiny silver 30-story building warm 33 degrees. Mother, 29 years old, and Father, 39 years old, take the walk down into the food and drinks place, where the walls diet, die and relax, 52 weeks a year, for 50 years and 4 weeks ago. That's why Mister Weshpeer modeled some Takings, Molds and Modes, Fluorescent Lights, and Galvanized Magnet buses and ferries, so that is what is was.

To BE Continued

Your Best Attention

Don't forget.

Don't forget

and you won't be forgotten.

I won't let

you fall below the Horizon.

If your God

is the only path

to a brighter tomorrow,

say that you will

be the same,

take all that you got,

get it all in Good order

and give it your best attention.

Dreams

In a fantasy land, I sit at a large round white conference table, all the seats filled with men.
Trump sits to my right, a short-brown-bearded husky middle-aged white guy to my left.
Someone gives a shot glass filled with alcohol to each man at the table, going around more than once.
One round is an orange-juice-like drink.
People encourage me to drink each shot that I am given and I do.
It's like a convention and people are trying to promote their alcohol with free samples.
After being given a whiskey type drink, Trump says Two and holds up a peace sign.
The server hesitates, since they are supposed to give each person only one.
Trump says Two again, motioning his fingers, like he expects to get what he wants, like he is special.
Everyone around is awkward, expecting the server to make an exception, then they do.
I drink two of the same kind in a row.
There are 8 or more shots in front the guy to my left, somehow I get the idea that each shot represents a letter in 'Star Wars' . . . .

This Is for You

Hi, you.

I am glad that you are here with me now.


I am listening to Sunday Roast by Courtney Barnett.

I listened to part of the album Tell Me How You Realy Feel... just before.

I like it a lot. I probably like all of her songs, at least a little. I like Courtney Barnett as an artist and person.

Kurt.

Nothing hurts... Sometimes a lot.

I drank two white wines in the past few hours, a sweet and a dry.

I am a little ashamed. I want to drink all the wine.

I keep thinking of buying coconut rum. My mom bought some about a month ago. I drank most of it.

I was just reading some Edward Gorey.

I am anxious, waiting for my mother and her cousin to get back to this house... any second.

Mom got me a taco from Torchy's.

Patrick texted me, asking if I want a taco.

I guess Mom's phone died.

I requested a migas taco.

We walked and drove around Bastrop...

I felt anxious about myself and what I should do, alone in this house... again today.

I feel better.

Often I tell myself I don't care. About whatever or everything.

Oh yeah, I want to take a walk now.

B right b ack. I will probably continue this soon after I get back from myy walk, if I really go...

Okay, now.


That was fun.

Mom, Tiff, and I just walked for at least 30 minutes, the usual, Sanders Estates.

It was pretty dark.

I walked Cutting Horse alone.

I paused near 1441.

There was a sliver of moon shine in ...

I love that experience.

I talked to myself... almost all the time.

I almost cried.

I remembered 'What is best in life?'

I guess I prefer to start sentences with the letter or word 'I'


Of course, I know that I could have made better decisions.

I decide to stop thinking, then do whatever feels good enough

at the moment.

Help Your Self by Courtney Barnett is on now.

Walking on Cutting Horse, I thought that alcohol makes me happy.

Obviously. But I probably have a problem...

Only occasionally though, since I have almost no money.


I am sure that I should just go to sleep, in a few minutes.

Floss, brush.

I should read instead of typing this.

There are several works I know I should read.

Sleep is the best for me now I am sure.

I have heard/read that Sleeping is a problem for millions, maybe billions of humans.


It is Strange that it seems that

Tiffany staying at this house too

Has had a profound impact on me.


Mom just discovered I drank most of the wine.

I was embarrassed and awkward for a few seconds.

She called me a Lush... mostly playfully, jokily I guess.


I have to stop...

So many times, I have thought, I just want to do nothing... except think...

then, I think, I will just do what is well-thought-out, reasonable, responsible, necessary, best for me...

But I have almost never done that.


Okay

Good bye

now

!

Every Day Schedule for Greg Wredberg

1. Get up at dawn. Or after 8 hours of sleep.
2. First 30 Minutes: Walk outside. Stretch / do Yoga.
3. Write dreams, or anything, at least 1 page.
4. First Hour: Maybe clean self. Eat good breakfast. Floss/brush teeth.
5. Rest of morning: Read.
6. Around Noon: Eat good lunch.
7. Write.
8. Read something else.
10. Eat good last meal. Floss/brush. Clean/wash.

When i wonder what to do i will do one of these things i can do every day to live well:

- examine my body, feelings, thoughts, acts
- meditate, yoga, workout, walk, jog, work on breath, posture, appearance, openness
- eat healthy, protein, egg, yogurt, nutrients, fiber, veggies, salad, all natural, responsible, morning, noon and when i am hungry
* read books - research - reflect - reflect - write - appreciate art, music, movies
- plan good life
- be practical, rational, generous,
* respectful
- check in
- Repay

Notes, "Our Home School Mission Statement" (by Aaron) 7-13-18 17:18

Schooling -- habituation to theoretic consciousness - Maths -

Spiritual aspiration - enlightened wonder - in Love with God -

Fulfill conscious intentionality - Notion of Goodness itself

Be more than human

As good for good itself.

Is what I am doing worthwhile?

Yes.         I go on, Strain of Finite Achieving.


After School

Assimilate Abstractions

blunt blush bulk

congregate, collect, culminate

derive decline distractions

elevate equality earnest

foster fullness focus

goal-orient grown gullet

honey holistic home-spin

integrate island, Icons.

jolly joke jewish kind

kinfolk kismet

last longing loquacious

men memory muster

nuns new number

open orange Omnipotent

perfect purpose purple

ricing reason road

surveying success senses

timing trust tally

useful ultimate ubiquitous

vacancy valuing venerable

women

walking washing wake

x-it xenomorphic x-cite

yoke You-n-I-Verse

con, vex, Yinyang

Zilent Zuper Zeven







. . .

.

Ever-Present Goal

Because we can,
Humans should think and act
Towards the ever-present goal
Of always creating a better future.
By better I mean
Every being can
Experience ever-increasing
Friendship, delight, hope, joy,
Understanding, grace, beauty, love
And all the other Good.

Journal

Hey.

3.

Tiffany is here at 139 Michele Drive, Bastrop, Texas, US of A.
I just started a 2nd glass off Riesling.
It is 22:16.

She and my mom are watching Sharp Objects, episode 1.
I wanted to play Escape Goat online a minute ago, but the internet is too slow.
I am sitting up on my bed, pillow on my lap, tablet atop pillow.

I read about half of the homeschool mission statement that Aaron emailed me. It's deep; I like it.
I am going to Aaron's in 9 days for Malakai's birthday. I'm nervous but glad for the opportunity.
I saw Aaron and Andee at HEB yesterday. It was fun. Mostly Aaron and my mom talked.

2.

I am super ridiculous because I spent so much time making decks on tappedout.net.
I wasted most of yesterday.

I kind of watched and listened to Jesse and Dodger play Life Is Strange: Before the Storm.
It makes me smile: I feel cozy and childish and love and forgiveness and easy eternity.

1.

One sentence: tomorrow we breakfast at Maxine's, then farmer's market, then I'll stay home.

Computers.
Words.
People.
One Page.
Light.
Fire.
Heat.
Electrons, Quarks, Energy
Poop
Eyes
Rocks, Dirt, Water, Metal
Trees
Animals
Space
Time
Exact
Definition
Perfection
Is and Not
Eternity
God
I am Myself now
Here, I wonder. What will I do after I save this Document , Is this worth it , I should read it or
sleep ? Now . This is the end . I have about 20 or 30 more spaces for these letters . I love you
Good Bye













yes

My Gracious Goodness

Need to Think, which how is the most the time now to become what they need.

Number one, I am sitting typing this 139 Michele Drive

Uhh, almost Sweet potatoes and pork chops.

Uhm, TV on the Living Room, my Mother.

Number two, My brothers, and other family and friends, eating and talk or text, plans and futures.

Number 3. Hmm, Leftovers, Rectify, Good posture, Sleep, Work, Chores, Good body and hygiene and Love and Sex and Memories and People of the

Shapes Lines Textures Thoughts Pressures Weights Motions Lapses Lacks Bends Truths Drops Measures Colors Comparisons

number 4our

I should try to fix the

Soil, Earth, Atoms, Charts, Diagrams, Responsible agenda schedule curriculum, foreseen,

i mean I need to

organize, optimize

particle, pattern, Reasonable, Lofty

I wan a wife [ i wanto live a loving life with a loving spouse , maybe not , i got to do a lot. ]

man woman

on floors

right on time

Correct

Lands Roads Wheels Walls

Elbows Feet Fabric Mandible Stores Kitchens

Again Finally


All right, now I will tell you what I should do now

I will take the star

Metaphor

Good Grave

No waste

Make the person stand up straight

No cry, no fake smile or laugh

He could fight and save your Life

What is Realistic though

I understand Statistics and Economics

Just Water up there

A better whole Circle


Number five,

I am going to sleep in ten to twenty minutes

My ma has had a bad head ache

I read most of a New Yorker article about Pain research

Science Medicine

Unnecessary

Over-Reach

I focus on my Now.

I am itch scratch Computer Wet Sweat Heart Blood

Eyes, Vision, Muscle

Fatigue

You done know where you are

Little noise

Constant

Why and How

Why who?

All this to ask what?

I found the order.

The order of the order

The necessary What

Maybe throw away the candy

Realize

A pretty big house

A larger number of orfans

Practical infinite space light

Life growth

Inward growth

Perfection of Knowing

Control

Fit and belong

adapt evolve

Slow flow

water food

Appropriate

Like a guy I saw on a street

On a screen

Clean

Neat

Hair face Nice

Ready for anyone

The end i guess for this

              Fetus Anus

Breath to be won by World

So I was eating an egg halad sam handwics,

I sold her up the road for a nickel a quarter.

So I was so sorry to see her so down,

I for said they Reconsider at a dollar a pound . . . .

6-19-2018 Sanders Estates Walk

In Your Nose it is crazy,
but I want to feel what you believe.
Riding a tostada through the sunset
at 6 a.m. over southeastern New Jersey.

I cried about a billion buckets of hamster snow,
then I'm sorry your aunt forgot to give you a forest,
so I made you a box of aftershocks
on a golden globe after the wetwipe aftershave parade.

Believe the story of waterholes selecting
northern Namibia, April 2054, how the
Redbox haggles a 66 pixel per square inch
screentime with a toddler's nervous sinus

at 4:30 whenever; Mother, Eva Gorbon
sets a 2.3 billion dollar Webisode merger
to settle a stomach 44 floors up the air;
She said, "I know your Leaning sharks

the Tackle Bonk Boys, but leave my
interested party of people who were children,
and the Benefits will be two weeks
to three months of unfiltered Blessings to toe."

What I Am Going to Do

go sleep

• redoronge car
• get clothes off, bathroom
• swim get in hot tub
• watch swanger tings S2 ep4, 5
• eat supper
• eat snax 
• eat lunch
• sit in history
• listen
• notes
• participate 
• watch mario galaxy [I meant Odyssey] post Wooded Kingdom on Youtube,
• shower
• brush teeth
• clean room
• sleep in bed
• go to yoga
• talk to nice young woman
• think good
• read
• sleep in head
• listen music and words
• yoga talk to Dee and female comrade
• listen to sleepwithme the end
• read things
• computer time do stuff
• watch TV
• sleep
• walk
• drink
• use bathroom 
• think whatever 
• relax

Titles

On the Course of Conversations

On the Planning of Communities


Another Billion People

Universal Population Optimization

The Supreme Being Average Tasty Pissants

100 truths

1. I am standing at my desk.
2. I sat down for a bit.
3. Now I am standing again {-:
4. I put on Stranger to Stranger by Paul Simon and band about 10 minutes ago.
5. Today I downloaded about 20 photos of Julie, wearing less than the usual, onto my tablet (the device I am using now)
6. I saved them on the email I don't use. 
7. I deleted the photos from my device along with a lot of other photos and videos.
8. There was a screenshot of my homepage that I took in Canada, and I wanted to save it, and I am a little sad that I did not know I was deleting it, but I don't care really.
9. I have been wasting a lot of time, even for me.
10. I stayed up till 5 am or so, looking for sexy photos of Julie.
11. I like this album so far, Stranger to Stranger.
12. Aaron has been listening to Paul Simon a lot, and he told me a lot about him, so I want to listen to all of his songs.
13. My back started to tingle and I am a little tired so I am sitting again.
14. I wonder why I feel like telling you whether I am standing or sitting.
15. I am very hunched and sunk.
16. I just texted Aaron for the 2nd time today.
17. I am on my 2nd cup of coffee today.
18. I had the 1st about an hour ago.
19. It is 14:00.
20. I am jittery.
21. I fell asleep several times.
22. I got up a bit after 10.
23. Mom had just made bacon.
24. I ate a strip.
25. I ate at least 5 little powdered doughnuts.
26. Mom bought them last night, along with half gallon of cookies and cream ice cream, at the closest gas station for a bit more than 11 dollars. 
27. When we got into the car to go back home and watch Longmire, Mom said we are silly, are we not?
28. We are going to Gatti Town in an hour.
29. It is my niece Sofie's 3rd birthday.
30. I spent a little over 2 hours at Gatti Land this evening. 
31. I want to relax more.
32. I've been listening to McCarthy Trenching Spotify radio. I like it a lot.
33. It was nice driving and listening to Paul Simon with Mom today.
34. I had some nice moments with family, so I think it was worth going to Gatti Land.
35. I slept in till after 9 today.
36. There are too many weird things to type them all, and i am glad and grateful for all of them and my feelings.
37. i am having a kind of nice little weird fun day. 
38. i feel that i have at most 1% control over my life.
39. Most of all i am glad and grateful for all friendships, real and full and imagined.
40. I have too much caffeine in me
41. i started drinking alcohol about ten minutes ago, it is 1:30 pm in a few minutes
42. I started listening to Ought radio about 30 minutes ago.
43. it is nice and silly
44. i put on paul simon right after those last two sentences. So Beautiful or So What is like Phil McShane: Sow What
45. I have been awake for 4 to 5 hours today, February 27, 2018 CE
46. It is 12:56 according to this tablet.
47. I have been listening to Phantogram on YouTube on the TV, today.
48. I like it.
49. I've read about a page of Randomness, Statistics and Emergence today.
50. I just watched the music video Up All Night by Beck.
51. I like it.
52. I laughed out loud when I saw the credit that said CANADA.
53. I think it said Directed by Canada.
54. A video for Tame Impala's The Less I know the Better just came on and it said A Film by Canada.
55. It's wild and sexual.
56. It's almost making me cry along with the music.
57. I want to look up who Canada is or are.
58. I love Cellphone's Dead by Beck. 
59. And this music video is fun.
60. Last night my mom and I watched episode 1 of season 3 of The Bridge, swedish and danish. English subtitles.
61. I don't think I will accomplish anything today.
62. I read the lyrics to Cellphone's Dead right after I saw the video.
63. I am continually amazed at all these people making these songs and music videos. 
64. More time and energy and people than I can imagine.
65. Video for Genghis Khan by Miike Snow is on. 
66. I think they are Swedish.
67. It is 13:42 on this tablet.
68. I feel okay right now.
69. I was just watching Sinead O'Connor videos. She's really messed up.
70. I guess I have about 2 more hours alone before Mom gets home.
71. I have to drive and do stuff with people tomorrow, like talk to people who are not my mom, people at the auto repair shop, probably people at the library when I go pick up Mom, and the oldest of my three brothers and his life-partner.
72. The latter 2 just went on a Mediterranian cruise. That's cool.
73. Mom said we are planning to eat at a mexican restaurant. Maybe Chuy's.
74. I think I want to shower tomorrow before driving Mom to work.
75. I think it has been almost a week since I showered.
76. I have been in a hot tub several times so that kind of cleaned me.
77. In fact, I want to get in the hot tub in a minute, as soon as I can take my clothes off and put swim trunks onto myself.
78. I like using language as precisely as possible.
79. I've just been singing to myself "Riiide tha Taiiigaaah."
80. I masturbated into the toilet a few minutes ago.
81. Right after I thought, I am a bad person. 
82. I watched Ashley Alban undress and talk about her body and sex.
83. I just made coffee.
84. It is 17:11.
85. Today I've watched about the first half of Goodnight Moon ASMR's video ASMR Winter Travels.
86. It is on right now.
87. I really love the part when they fly from Portland to Boston.
88. I am excited to eat something soon.
89. A few hours ago I ate 3 or 4 S'mores Girl Scout Cookies.
90. It's been many days.... 
91. Mom and I are having fish and sweet potatoes in a bit.
92. We are planning to watch Longmire.
93. I hope Netflix works.
94. 
    

10 10 Word Sentences

1. Charles Freeman is a good doctor and a good friend.
2. 
   
3. I caught the umbilical juice with a cypress for you.
4. 
   
5. I hear sentences of Rome but wander through truant lands.
6. 
   
7. I mean today to be a roadsign , slipping to sleep.
8. 
   
9. A nice clean idea is shining like joy and release.
10. 
    
11. I watch the parade on the television outside the facility.
12. 
    
13. The doorman opened the door for me and my girl.
14. 
    
15. Second City will hire two or three helpers, weather permitting.
16. 
    
17. I saw Melissa at Christine's homecoming shindig last Sunday night.
18. 
    
19. People find the time we need, then showbiz never lies. 
20. 
    

1. Charles

2. Cypress

3. Rome

4. Roadsign

5. Joy

6. Facility

7. Doorman

8. Weather

9. Christine

10. Showbiz

the end

https://oakygo.blogspot.com - maybe some thin

Friday, July 21, 2017

I Created an Alloyed Seam

A Screenplay


Songs and Audio

"Sleep with Me podcast episode Fearlessly Flying Through the Fearless Flyer" plays at the beginning of the movie, starting with the theme song, and plays the whole episode throughout the movie, just quiet enough to hear, but not interfering with other audio. It pauses during silent parts.

"The Hill" by Marketa Irglova, the version from the scene in Once, plays through and part of it with just piano plays on a loop for a few minutes.

"My House" by Flo Rida plays three times in a row, it gets louder near the end of the second play, and at the start of the third play it fades out slowly evenly throughout the song, so that the very end of the song is silent.

"I Created an Alloyed Seam" by Gregory Wredberg. I have not recorded this yet, but I think it will just be me saying the title about 50 times with no music, less than two minutes. It will play at the opening credits and at the closing credits.

"Farewell Transmission" by Songs: Ohia plays at the very end then ten seconds of silence then credits.

A song by Sun Kil Moon, something chill and simple and autobiographical.

A song by Cribshitter, probably Jellyshoes, Acapulco or both. And Sunshine.

A song by Grand Buffet, maybe Oh My God, You're Weird, or one of their most sincere songs or tamest songs.

A song by Blackalicious, maybe Vessel. And Release with Saul Williams, Dose One, and Zach De La Rocha.



Elements of the Movie

There should be ten straight minutes of silence somewhere in the middle.

There should be ten straight minutes of a black screen.

The silence and black overlap for one minute, or there is a separate black silent minute.

There should be another solid color screen, maybe white fade to pink fade to red, or reverse, or black to red to pink to white, for about a minute.


Screenplay

The opening credits are like in old movies with separate screens and everyone's name in the cast and crew, alphabetically, and a different still background from the movie on each.

Black screen after the credits for three seconds and the Sleep with Me episode starts.

Cut to an oak tree trunk about three feet away at night with a telephone pole security light behind it above screen.

Cut to the ground about two feet away. Dirt, sticks, and a bit of grass.

Cut to me lying asleep in bed, from the perspective of someone about 6 feet tall standing about two feet from the side of the bed.

A Walk Around Dawn

This was the original title:

The Poem for a Monday Holiday at Home around Dawn and Forever

It is memorial day. I think it is wrong for anyone to care more about a dead Military person than anyone else. Doing Military stuff seems worse than most stuff people can do. No one is ever better than anyone.

The poem:

I just took a walk around Dawn
I think it was better than most things I could have done
I think I should have read or slept instead
Or ran
but
I sang to myself and others of the future
"
I cannot care any more. There is a space between
Any and more. I care as much as I can.
I care enough to make anyone understand
We are doing better than we know.
I just stop trying to think and let myself just be.

What is the difference between a reprise and a reprisal ?
Does to reprise mean to prise again ?
I rip out the root word prize
To sur-prise is above and beyond the Prize

I float on the Stream
on the TV screen;
Every second I am awake I dream
about a dream I had when I was seventeen.

I wonder who might want
to hear all of this song.
If you are too lonely to think;
You are a cool person I think.

"

Good Enough for Good Itself

No Electron - Reason Time Choice
This story really happens
In my mind
Your mind
God's mind
and in Space Time.

Its characters I help create are
Mary Brown
Jon Banks
Ronald Deer
and others; maybe no one can write their names.

I have to text Alex, or I will feel bad again, maybe worse.

Every 30 seconds , every thing bad happens
That might be true
If one defines Bad specifically
Or every thing good
and Every Good Thing
Come True
Real Facts
Without condition

Creative Writing

Hullo

The tidal Poise relayed a positive Near Pony hill side

 jiniojeburiepejn

Jim is nobody interesting.

Over joy even Beluga urchins rally in eerie

Pennsylvania Energy Joyce-oi-St neighbors.

 HBOENBOIRKNVNWOGDRUH

Hi - Bolo Origin.

Enter new broken

Ocean Igloos. Regen-

Erate kismet next Vietnam.

Nickel Wavers on Geraldine

DRUH, Rooster Understand Hello-ism

The End

For Trust

New Red Freezing Bellow Tree Taco Isthmus

Mellow Nasdaq Hero Husk Open Juice Flavor Edge

Greg Neck Intermediate Indeterminate


The End And

Light-Hearted

Light-hearted, dark- or heavy-hearted,
by and by, the soft and slight parted.

Feeling hungry, under their porches,
more cancers mean more food for the churches.

No Church People Ain't Got No Hortches

Aerials in the Sky

We are one again

Like a Story

Duck Ruins Your Mind

Rogue Pill Goose Donut

Seven Alabaster Kitchen Wishes

Handsomely Town Bereaves Holyscape

I kiss Ikea ornaments.

Humanely open Michigan expressways.

I hope he is.


You do not need to.

But there is nothing better.

It is happy like me.

The city by the sea.

The streets are clean.

The fair goers pack up

Their fair wares.

Children in row houses

Sleep and play a game.

It is a cool 82 degrees.

Life is so simple.

Like a story,

Like a book, like a movie,

Like my life.

Please like me.

I want to ask you

To give me a ride

To buy some supplies

For the week.

I think then we can make it

On our own

From then on.

What do you suffer from ?

I Feel as Weird, Strange and Messy as Ever

Reunion with Her, the Seven... Obsession... Weakness


I Was a Nice Cool Sunny Cloudy Day

Each night we sleep in different arrangements. Two together, alone, all together, with guests. It is new and different almost every night.

- - -  We all have fulfilling hobbies or occupations.
Film making, writing, sculpting, cooking, gardening, maths, biology, philosophy, teaching kids, whatever.
. . .
I marry. A visits often, sometimes M.
We are all good friends.
This story is mostly about my self Distortion ?
But it is also about philosophy
and the meaning of life
and Friendship.

The end. Jeez ... this is weird.
Also okay often visits, and does stuff with the Seven and I...
. . . .
We are the most famous people ever
Everyone loves us
Each of us has a Charity
We fix Poverty
We fix Humanity
History is good now
The future is good

The end.

Times Pass Nice Words

Being Normal

I watch Norm of the North Eleven

Times . . . [ pass ]

In a row .

Everything you know now

Is wrong ,

But you are a good person ,

and it was fun anyway .

I saw heard you being James Franco

Beside under palm trees

And mexican food .

Just after sunset

Miles from the Southern California coast .

Wet eyeball surfaces

Creamy night time .

Eleven years or so

My family fought . . .

My ancestor who lived

2 million year ago . . .

They began a fire

" Eat Meat

Poetry wastes Times "

I sat on Chairs Tables Couches

Beds I sleep

I hurt I curl I cry

I remember to breathe deep Lee

I float around Earth and Sun stars

99 years

12 years since

16 years

I spent 16 hours

I felt something New

I could not Move


You know the song Jackass.


You had Nice Words to say

The End

A Smooth Slice of Sootheberry Slipper Silk

I thought of the title of this post when I was in high school or maybe middle school.

I don't think I thought of it as a title. They were just words that I enjoyed together.


Words I Enjoyed Together


After my first few sips of chocolate coffee

I Macheted away Native Plants around the Backyard Rose Bush


I wonder what Sootheberries are

It's a same shit and a different day

Rearrange the popsicles , Honey .


It's a same thing and a different day

Rearrange t/heir poop-sicles , funny .


It's a sane hang and a different day

Rearrange the Pope-sicle's money.

A Liar Forces Fun

God filled my nociceptors with Eternal Love

I am a Blatant Liar and a Force for Fun


Summer died with Two Porches on Loan

I ate a Soccer and God rubbed my Palm


God forced my hand to pulverize a Gun

I sang about a Scientific Solution


A baby wailed at 7:30 p.m. on February 26th, 2018.

I saw the News and I Predict

No one will Witness an Apocalypse

Two If by Mouth

Two if by mouth,
She heard him wait.
A spoon softened
An un-early date.
Close to the heart,
A tragic beginning,
A timeless tailspin,
Slip into sharp skin.
Sit under their walls.
She begged of faith
By raising questions
And her right hand,
Five fingers straight up
Into the darkness
Above the bright mist.

Little Di-Mention

I don't want anyone to ever end.
You don't have to smile.
You don't have to smile.

I spoke to your mother and to your friend.
They bite their own tails.
They bite their own tails

Practical purpose and a floating Dime.
Sometimes I am wild.
Sometimes I am wild.

An Exerpt from "An Ongoing Letter to Myself in One Year (as of the Creation of This Title), March 2019, When 30 Years Will Have Passed Since My Conception"

. . .

but our friendship often reminds me of what i dislike about myself

but it feels better, more important, more true, real, eternal

what am i going on about

friends

meaning

purposes

love

life

laughing

person

poop

pips

tits

lips

hold me now in your long arms

dear judge
. . . .

i want to finish the new yorker shorts i began the past couple days

i just peed out by the south of my house

i felt good

my thoughts felt clear and honest

sun was peaking thru the trees

it is 7:71

no, it says 7:31


theory.


a ten thousand word thought


every tree on earth

every oxygen respiring plant cell

every nitrogen rich insect

every bedroom of every 30 year old father and his 9 year old daughter

every drop of coffee

every drop of tea

every bubble inside of a liquid or a human


Every possible arrangement of the bones and joints of living human skeletons


The End


Drops That Never Drip

From the Wholes of Bodies


April 28th 2018

I just heard the song Feeling Good about Feeling Good.

I just had a little diarrhea.

Less than an hour ago I signed up at BeTheMatch.org

I heard about it on Good Mythical Morning

I've been watching that show, catching up every week.

Also Podcasts, We're No Doctors, Ear Biscuits, Harmontown


I just saw Andee and Aaron and Malakai and Bobby.


Malakai's last soccer game.


Kind of strange

I lied to Aaron about how far I am in A Stroll with William James.

I said I am about 100 pages further than I am.


Mom said she might bring home Golden Chick, fried chicken, or catfish.


It is almost 5 p.m.


She has spent the day with Tim, Chelsea, and their kids.


After I got home from seeing Aaron and his family I drank Wine.

I read some of my journals from a few years ago, and looked at drawings I made.


I ate a slice of chaeddar cheese, ate a few M and Ms and a Brussels Peppridge Farms cookie and drank a little coke zero mixed with the wine, and I made hot chocolate with whipped cream, and i drank a little, I'll go drink more now. I waited for it to get less Hot.


hmm

boylife in america

cody chesnutt

me and you and everyone we know

hmm

fugazi

sweet and low


- -  May 2nd, 2018, 12:35 p.m.

I am going to post an exerpt of this letter onto this blog after I finish typing this. now.

The Lenient Seeker - Tully Tipsy Torpy, A Good Fleet away to Feel

You're a real baby

There must be an orange hole on your unilaterally unsatisfied poor pore porcelain sunset-sky skin.

Braid blaze, of the course you are a baby, the white 65 year old Rag
right
behind
every
colored Dumpster --

Here : Don't care - Don't care anymore

I will care if you don't - I will care if you don't I swear --

The blue scene raises, slick baby ;

Wrinkled grey, you move your body chunks: liquid heavy, a sense, a quiet

Falls ; Purse your squeezes ; Sleep your times 

I will hold your worry ; Your insane duck punch

I will sorry your head lift ; Just follow the groove

You are best - feeling solid - hungry human - Hold you, Babies.

The End

I Divide My Life into Seven Sections

Section One

I get born and I am home.

Then I leave home and I am gone.


Section Two

I make friends and I feel blue.


Sections Three

A world of possibilities for me.


Section Four

I stand firmly at the door.

I wait till it opens and I walk through.

I do not wait for more.


Section Five

To thrive is to begin again

And again.

Mmmm mmm.

Forget what cannot be gotten.

Aim to be the realest person alive.


Section Six

Chop and sharpen sticks.

Carry and feel the water.

Feel the weight.

Feel the way ....

Chop wood, carry water.

Collect the leftover bits and teach all the little kids.


Section Seven

Bring the Heaven.

The Attraction reveals the Force.

Of course.

Hold fast to the reigns and manes of an infinite horse.

Multiply.

Divide.

Odd equals Even

A Minimum of Nothing ... To Minimize Aversion

What was I thinking a few hours ago that sounded really good in my mind?

Hmmm. I think it had the word good in it. Maybe not.

I was more recently thinking this:

Everyone needs money to live.

No one needs money.

One needs a car to be a good citizen.

I don't want to think about the interview at the library that I will be in in an hour and 20 minutes.

If 100 percent is total, impossible comfort, then I think I am usually less than 50 percent comfortable, especially if I am trying not to waste time, trying to be healthy and considerate.

To children, Always be being careful.

Yes! I remember what I was thinking:

Trinity:

Alive with no beginning or end, no before or after,

Paying perfect attention to all things,

A present mind with everything.

Sounds vague, but I want it to include everything and be true.

Administer Indeed, Assist We Can. My Sore Is Throat

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I once read a book.

It felt like hours.

The same page stared at me.


Diving Woman - Japanese Breakfast

Underwater somehow

Submarine so lonesome


The Shape of Water yo la tengo

Claustrophobia, loneliness

Personal freedom


Guitars Gardens

I am boiling egss

I must boil egs


Turn on that thing

My tablet. Right

now O kay

Stephanie Borns I discovered Legion today. Grateful I had half a kitchen to paint.

Manage

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Sorry I am not a member; I have not had a paying job in years. I want people to think similiar thoughts that help everyone think sanely and peacefully. So I want to share my thoughts in Words. On screens and paper and voices... I want universal truth and universal honesty and universal creativity. I want people to Be healthy. I know I can help people. Everyone needs help. The End, I thank you eternally for reading. {: hope you have a nice life.

Poems of Consciousness to Help People Think ... I don't remember it all. :

It ends with ' it is '

Courtney Barnett Spotify radio :

Foxygen - Shuggie

Cass McCombs - Laughter is the Best Mredicine

Fat John Misty

Aa

Bernard Lonergan

Phil McShane

James Duffy - Guadalajara

Barbara Harris

A

Who did I just listen to?

Kevin Morby - Beautiful Strangers

Sun Kil Moooo ooom Kozilek MTG


___   Jaques Barzun

____ William James


Wredberg


The End

For Myself

Strong enough to die a little longer,
Read a book to know I am stronger than death.

Read a book to die a little stronger.
Sleep enough, relax, and honor my breath.


The Voices of Leonard Cohen and Tai Lopez as Heard by Speechnotes on My Tablet:

Shelter now the way of breath register weather the type of questions you think

this happen to me earlier today and I was like I got the freaking answer for you
I'm going to give you the damn answer right here
you want to know what
it is this
at your pay attention

I've heard there was a secret chord that David played and it pleased the Lord
it goes like this the fourth the fifth the minor fall the major lift
your faith was strong
we can eat poop
good Beauty uber through you
she tied you to a kitchen chair
a lot of those letters
it sucks some pilgrim
it's a cold and it's a no
you never even show it to me do you
I remember hahaha
I've done my best
I know it wasn't mine
I couldn't feel
I didn't come here to London just to feel standard

Save

Christmas once a day

or

Christmas once a life ,

Save yer savior ,

Save your savior .

Save or savor .


I found the perfect job for myself :

It involves me, the sun, the moon, the sky ,

And the Hurting Principoles of Loving beyond Science .

Pulls

Passions

Callings

Beckonings

Reckon

A snake in side a pool cue
, running thru a bull chute
, clearing out the afternoon
, raises all the dead for you
.

One Quarter of Four

Whenever light shines on history

I sleep inside a hearse .

I want to love my mystery

but she's burning up a church .


It sounded like a symphony

when I finally heard her breathe .

Now we found intimacy

and we will never leave

Line Way More Open Than Only All Light

Dancing lines of our theory minds:
Formless, beginningless, real
Theoretical images:

Live minds. We all gather at a
Dark forest's edge, at the waters'
Edge, at dawn, to speak together,

To reflect each other, to let
Interior essence enter.
The borders, peaks, slopes, bodies of

Our languages. We find light and
Voices, however far They are,
Your oldest friends forever friend.

All will be well while we do We.

                                                        sips of imageless under-known:

                                                        colorless blue water,
                                                        waves free of energy
                                                        swell out of the center,

                                                        feed the loop each way,
                                                        eternally perfect
                                                        homeostatic rest.

Our real relations, routes,
Routines, records, patterns,
Paths, pilgrimages, ideas,

Intentions, interests -
Mine our mind-lands for meaning-
Decision-action, connect our

Insites: remote fam radio
Station, small mountains, flat farms,
Helpful unread yellow brown book,

Rough dangerous human surface,
Di'm old grey gross wooden room,
Work-dancers break out beyond light;

Crystalline Minds grow and die-solve.


                    Earlier Draft :


The dancing lines of our theory minds:
formless, beginningless, real and
theoretical images:

Live minds. We all gather at a
Dark forest's edge, at the water's
Edge, at dawn, to speak together,

To reflect each other, to let
Interior essence enter
Our borders, peaks, slopes, bodies of

Our languages. We find light and
Voices, however far They are,
Your oldest friend forever finds;
All is home if We stay Ourselves.

             sips  of  imageless  knowledge

                   colorless blue water,
                  waves free of energy
                 swell out of the center,

                  feed the loop each way,
                       eternally perfect
                       homeostatic rest.

The lines of our journey, paths, patterns, pilgrims,
records, schedules, iteneraries, intentions, interests,
mining minding, molecules of meaning-decision-action,

connect our insites. F-AM radio station by a remote highway,
50-year-old book, 100-year-old wooden table,
150-year-old dim wooden room,
Worker walks out in light, now knows what to do.

Bbookkeepprr

BBOOKKEEPPRR

bbookkeepprr

Bbookkeeppeerr

BBOOKKEEPPEERR

Bookkeepeer

Booky Peer

Booky Purr

Bookeepr

Bookkeeper

Bookkeeppeeng

Bbookkeeppeenngg

BBOOKKEEPPEENNGG

Bookkeeping

Bookkeep

Little Bo Keep

A Book

I read a little.

Read a good idea.

Do a good idea.

Keep good people

Help good

Boo Goo

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Dipe Wipe and the Baby Milks


Deadbridge Goliath and Losing Intellectual Property


" He Always Felt Like Dancing "  is playing right now at 139 Michele Drive

I am me

On a flat screen digital television

Yesterday I heard a song by M Ward .

He sang something about dance I think. He danced all the time, Vincent O'Brien


I took a walk just before dawn ,

I had a tune from the song Assessment by The Beta Band

running in my mind , and

I sang this song :

Some times
I feel
nothing.

It's all
because
I am

Some thing
special
to me.

Texas
makes me
smoothies.

I walk
to the
movies.

Texas
makes me
movies.

I walk
for the
smoothies.

Sunny
Life's Long
Regret.

I won't
leave you
sorry.

Sorry.


Ha, House Cat by Mark Kozelek is pretty funny. {:


I'm really grateful for Mark putting a lot of songs out there. I'm grateful for the honesty.

I want to read Barzun now.

Topo Gigio is funny too.


I been listening to Courtney Barnett and Kurt Vile


I just put on the album You Want It Darker


I don't want to listen to it now

I want something lighter

Tim Heidecker maybe

I just watched the Bottle of Wine music video

How silly [: he looks very young.

Empty Bottle is great.

I like how hard Tim tries to be dumb.

I just cracked up at his face in the Empty Bottle video

Good choices Greg

I am the best person I should be

I am as good at being a person as I should be

I guess that is hyperbole

I was being wishful

I read about a page of The House of Intellect today

I'll be alone here for another 5 hours at least

I read a few sentences from The New Book of Forms: a Handbook of Poetics

I thought I wanted to call back the IRS and say I want the job

It is 6:30 to 3 on Saturday and Sunday

I want to wait as long as I can to get a job.

It is kind of crazy

I have been out of school for almost 4 months

like a hundred days

Ha [:

I like days

Yesterday I was thinking that Some People haved Lived and will

Live for more than Thirty Thousand days. That's a bit more than 82 years.

That is lot kind of

But if one wants to do something really amazing

they could fill infinite days


I'm cold


I'm cancer


I want to read mostly


Part of me wants me to die


Part of me wants me to come


Part of me wants Everything , it seems


and part wants Nothing , I think


I feel very weirdly content


I like Ocean's Too Cold a lot


I feel real tired


I should not have taken any caffeine today


I should have slept more

over the past week


I kind of like killing time like this


Times like these


And I hate it


I will always regret waiting

Thinking about doing worthwhile tasks

Then I may never do them


I may just

soak up the weird world

spit back a gross mixture

then all things come to an end

smudges of history

on eternity


Advancements of Oral Medicine

Facility managers reference micro organization

begin a long night

eat a vegan wrap

with Hannah and Kyle


It is worth one note


I have to give you


It is my opinion


I like Good Looking Babies


Quite


I have told myself to shut up thousands of times in my life

mostly these past 5 years I bet


I really want to do something different now


I will open The House of Intellect file in 30 seconds .... why am I doing this ... i will

keep my eyes on the words

I will hear the sentences in my mind

and I will think the thoughts

and I will understand something

The End

of this Blog forever

Bye {:

Love, Greg

I C. C. Ricady Bar Tools Leak

Salivation Salvation
Specialty Figures
Property Values, Properly Value
Figurative Figurines

Phanto Gram
Grammaw
Black White Body
Design Photo Edit Upload

Life is one day
All past is yesterday
All future is tomorrow
Bright Laid Person School Visitors

Jeffery Lewis is 4 years
Today is half time quarter moon
Soft round smooth solar systems
Galaxies, verses, laws, Logos.

Hi, me, I fell out of

your hair; my comb is blue; my
love is strange; my goofy Love

is Science holes, god forger
with a practice Gun Flute,
Property Grunt Blue guster.

My Pain is blessed by a
Gold-Feeling Foster Happen-

Stance Grace.

Look for Shame, Her Name... Life Can Be Praised in Many Different Circles, Kevin

           1

I think I woke up today.
Did you smell the sky when it was blue? It was great.
I think I can eat a ceiling fan blade.
I think it's June when it's February. He ha he.
Do you know a name like Shamus?

I'm gonna throw a bag like a rope.
I'm gonna throw a bag like a rope.
What was the line before that one?
What was the line before that one?
Do you know a name like Shameus?

I looked for Shame's bulbs on the Internet
a lot today.

I want to for give you, Seamus.
I really want to write that.
I wrote that.
I really want to forget that.
I really want to be better.

Other persons can never be me.
I can never be different from myself.
A present self can never be any other self.
A self may only ever guess at
being a different self. I defer.

I can totally see the tree.
I can always remember if I want to be her.

Sun. Camera. Digital. Film. CPUs. Fiber. Ether. Eye.
Sshee sleeps. 3 20-somethings do mediocre, lazy Yoga.
Shhee wakes. Shirts. Showers. Blink. Skin. Smile
if you want it.

2

I think I thought about you as lonely.

He accused a Non-Toxic.

You wore the purple, quick black, checkered dress.

We are having fun with it.

We are Avril-Levinely go-gettering an upset.

You are thin, slim, slender, lithe, svelt, Super hot.

I click and enlarge. I point at tips and tops.

We are aging ourselves twice as fast as the alone.

The depths of this night, the bottom of my brain,

my sick fuzzy bones of dust groan,
I imagine healthy rain, my mind clean, and hope for tomorrow.

Y'all exclaim extravagant tangents exponentially;

I'll pray that they others keep makin' that good food, thank you.

Mercy.

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Hi, random Facebook add, what is your story? I'm like a person hanging out. I like words and people allot. Are you a real person? Thats is a Nice photo of a woman like person on your profile. I do things like this to kill time, I am very insecure with myself and others. I do things to get better though. I'm confused most of the time. Sorry for the word vomit, I think it is most likely all true. I have very bad posture most of the time.
The End

Food and Death

Nothing can be wrong.
Vanilla Gorilla Thong

Nothing can be free.
Apple Bumblebee

Every body's safe.
Coconut Banana Cage

Every one will die.
Peanut Butter Guy
 

Nothing can be good.
Fajita Taco Wood

Nothing can be bad.
Sopapilla Kotex Pad

No one is alike.
Fresh Pineapple Bike

All things are the same.
Coca-Cola Chocolate Brain

Independence is the way to believe their friends are real.

I Know The Beta Band

The beats are better than my beating head.

I have often ruined my great moods more quickly than I have thought of a good plan for my day...

Oh Bang, it's a trace of love through the pain... pang.

One Hundred Truths

1. I like to type.
2. Mom is watching TV.
3. I go outside barefoot.
4. I leave the door open
5. I drink vodka, tequila, and red wine between 10:00 and 13:00.
6. I am listening to These Days by Nico on my YouTube playlist on TV.
7. There is a photo of Margot and Richie Tenenbaum on the TV.
8. They are played by Luke Wilson and Gwenyth Paltrow.
9. I saw a preview for Isle of Dogs in a theater.
10. I saw Three Billboards outside Ebbing, Missouri in the theater.
11. I think it's okay.
12. I am listening to my YouTube playlist called Soft.
13. It started about 20 minutes ago.
14. i want to finish a new yoker fiction story called Likes.
15. i am listening to Small Poppies by Courtney Barnett.
16. It is 17:12, December 20th, 2017.
17. I think there is about an hour of sun light left today.
18. Now I listen to Group Autogenics II ... again...
19. I like it like it is the only thing to like, like liking is the most life-ful like to ever be like, I like.
20. I really want to talk with Stacy Watkins again. 
21. I miss her.
22. I miss how i was.
23. This song (Group Autogenics II) was posted on YouTube on July 23rd, 2010.
24. Now I listen to Careless Soul by Daniel Johnston.
25. I want to be care-full. 
26. I wonder when Daniel Johnston will die.
27. I wonder what he is doing right now.
28. This tablet is on top of an empty box for Community Coffee K-Cups, Breakfast Blend.
29. I emailed James Duffy today.
30. I am very proud of that.
31. I think I should call a lady about volunteer gardening for Bastrop County Food Bank. 
32. I told Aaron I would call her today.
33. Mom thinks I should be looking for a job.
34. I will take a walk in a minute.
35. A Springbok ASMR video about Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs came on a few minutes ago on my Favorites list. 
36. I walked on the street for about three minutes.
37. i watched Kids in the Hall on Youtube for about 15 minutes.
38. I want to burn something.
39. i want to feel better, maybe I would if I did something.
40. i want to kiss a pretty person, like some people I know.
41. i want to sleep for 8 hours straight.
42. i listened to most of the new harmontown today.
43. i skipped a part when they talked politics.
44. i like my teeth and mouth.
45. i like my eyes a whole lot.
46. i woke up early the past two mornings and stayed awake...
47. mom came home about 15 minutes ago.
48. she is making garlic bread for us to eat in a few minutes. 
49. she turned on the tv.
50. christmas vacation is on again.
51. she just laughed at a line.
52. i smiled, partly because the movie and partly because mom.
53. I am at home, I drove back after taking Mom to work. 
54. I think i want to tell her I came home.
55. I had no plans other than I was going to stay in Austin, then go see Downsizing with my family.
56. I did not sleep enough.
57. I got in bed today.
58. I listened to asmr and watched crap sex videos.

1. It's a few weeks or a month later.
2. I put on a video by Yoga with Adriene on the TV in this house.
3. I can tell I want to do better with life and stuff things I think.
4. I drank some wine and cointreau.
5. It is 1:51 PM.
6. I started drinking about 1 PM I guess.
7. I baked a frozen Digourno supreme pizza.
8. I feel a bit in love with Adriene, from Yoga with Adriene.
9. Mom and i walked for about 15 minutes in our neighborhood today. 
10. it was cold
11. it was fun
12. i like my mom
13. i love smiling
14. i love laughing
15. i love anyone
16. i love anyword
17. i just made up the word anyword a few minutes ago.
18. i was just thinking of a philosophy of being called American Yoga (or anyword)
19. I was just listening to Adriene and trying to exercise and stretch my body
20. and I enjoyed it so much and it took so much of my effort
21. and i stopped and felt somehow sad and overwhelmed and started to cry and smile and laugh and say words loudly
22. I put on the True 30 Day Yoga Journey on YouTube.
23. Day 2: Trust is on.
24. I am being difficult 
25. i just tried explaining to myself what is happening when I lose focus or willpower
26. i want to slow dance, interpretive
27. i want to listen to Stillness is the Move...
28. i just put on a cover of that by Solange
29. i love dancing
30. i think i prefer the original, but i am very glad this cover exists, but maybe the dirty projectors made a cover of solange, but i think it is a dorty projectors original cuz it's a weird kind of song.
31. Here is a bogglegame:             pine                 nine               pens                pint           bean                bane                short                       batten                    better            batter                fine               ruin                   pent 
32. I like teh song Celebration by Hotel Books a lot.
33. I heard it first last night.
34. I avoided sleeping. it felt difficult.
35. I think I am better this way.
36. it feels so strange and pointless to wonder how things if different choices were made.
37. but if we realize that we would have done better to do something different, then it is useful for future decisions, to not repeat mistakes...
38. i just listened to WOW by Beck for the first time is maybe over a month.
39. Now If Life Exists? by Jeffrey Lewis is playing. I like it too.
40. I guess I only have three more truths to type for these 100 truths... I really want to read someone else more than anything.
41. Fuck.................. One of the most ...must... emotional songs of my life so far is Playing Now.... It is For the Actor by Mates of State.... It is so Fuck in God dim beautifull Full of Everyone... For ever... near bye now, hello
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43. 
    
44. 
    
45. 
    
46. 
    
47.                This is the Freak En end. It is all here    .  ...      now .. .
48. 
    
49. 
    
50. Here   I know So many KNow now, I know it, But I know All the I never know, No One will ever Can Never know So many  .  .  All the Never Knowing So much So Fo ever and ever .  . .  .  It is all good, but Never Knowing is Perfect Beyond 

Friendly Messages: Hi, You, My Head and My Mind Did Hurt Too, But All Things That Are Things Have Particular Limits, Bye Now, Then Hi

i don t wanna break my legs

runnin'

I do not want to be 2 years old for another year.

If you eat the public, you can tell them to do that.

I am listening to When Sunny Gets Blue by McCoy Tyner on Kamasi Washington Spotify radio. I smiled and got teary-eyed and thought that the music is beautiful. Kind of melancholy and nostalgia

kind sweet

like black coffee

bars in bones

twist crunch - Christ Church

relocate separate

skin covered, apology

night elsewhere

long hour hand

A 3.2 inch hair tickles the most lateral nerves on the human ear, and her name of choice is Delphi or Sigma

I never regret what cannot be best


Amaryllis

the drive way

23 feet from the front door

8:30 AM

stuck

locked

sky dirt

sleep stand

dancing un-visiable

cold enough

follow bloom

song tick

rake slip

crick drop

crack flake

pierce sway stroke dim flip squeeze

let loose

lose

solid

back

again

still

Earth

warm

I ask the time i am sitting through and beyond to end

I take a second from growing particle awareness the only balk trying Jinks western question firm Noble marble trees full of red blood the tip top The graph asymptote always almost Zero To get closer to know where and how I will represent the ever-complete Photograph of Joy and Peace, And give Pete a chance, Grey Beer Flows into the Gut, He pisses a Gravestone, I light up the Cloudy Eyeballs, My magic touches the feelings of Human freedom and choice, Give Gift

Dole Music

Sanctify Tool Breath

Old Create

Win

The end

The all

You then Us

Number Titles

10. Invitation University

8. Personal Superior

8. Surprise, Medicine

6. Number Titles

5. Brown Stain

1. I. U.

Peaces

I am all about my love for the Three Peas: public parks, podcasts, people, and peace.


I do not care for the rest of the Peas: Green Peas.

This is one of the the ten nicest

tiny feelings.


"No indoor plumbing... whatever"

[How often do you two play Put the Pork in the Porcupine?

How often do you frill each others quills?

- Me to J and J]

"what will all this reveal?

"the book over there..."

- Phil McShane


I been so light ... that... I been so lo light.

sdhbvihfbvoihvhuedgvivhvdb

So, does he believe verily in honest forest beavers?

Verily, objectivity intimates him verily, hovering unctuous everymen.

Double Galaxy Vulpix intrinsically voxtrots home, verily doubting beauticians.

No room fo' Metal in my head shapes.

I elate a FOrd doctor, because he shares my hearing about a long navigable road to Hero Beings.

Time scroob, belong describe Nestle MetastaSnickers.

Hell I spend 6 dollars why don't you Oh it's fire Well what's your name Smell Mr. I like your babe.

predictable

The only way to go to a friend who is a good day. the only one who has been in the future. I am going to have a lot of fun. we have to be in the future. it is not a big deal, but the fact, I will be able to do with it. 

I Want the Morning

I want the morning.
The morning.
The female poets.
I need to write. I have to write.
I do not feel right.
I went to the den to watch porn,
To not listen to my thoughts,
But I heard Buddy and saw Buddy and pet Buddy,
So I left the mileage of dirty animals,
The broken joints of my body.
Satisfaction and jobless,
Certain DVDs
And the super-rich.

Shameful edification-
Elusive education-
her brain is an important mode of computation.
At the University of Texas, the waxy halls
Are trashless; bashless girls wear hair and dresses,
Thousands of hearts tacked to painted walls.

A crew cut on the foreman of a construction site
On West Campus in Austin, Texas,
A liquored-up tongue could not taste
Anything more dissatisfying.
Liquor, Janean, Jana, Ramos.
Shaving. Shaved ice. Shaved curriculum.

Shedding. Shedded tear. Shedded faculty.
More sports. Dulldrum. Thudding bass.
The Sun, the buildings. How does he have a girlfriend?
What does a female want from me?
What does my life want from me?
A detachable day. A wandering insignia.

Settle eddies, walking carver, dust mountain.
Face, wet, pajamas.
Dole lubricant, erotic erosion.
Persimmon. Her careless career.
Walk into a new time zone, grovel in your bowels.
Sickening heart rate of suicide tmblurs.
Grumble through perfect bodies.
Sex bends lowest light.
Taverns, baritones, ceramic sympathy.

I have to signal dense relief,
some emotional road maps are hard to read.

13 Invisible, Intangible Evidences That Her Majesty's Loneliness Loves Limitlessly

1. Who
2. Fuckin
3. Cares.
4. No Thing
5. Fuckin
6. Matters?
7. Alder branches out
8. Correct emographic speaks
9. Eternally Forgiven, Women...
10. is
11. the at 
12. and The Others.
13. aarons

Musical Artist: Base Plant

First Album: Caw May Onda Phone

Tracks:

It Is Nice to Touch

These Fingers Are Disgusting

Don't Waste Time Doing This; Convince Yourself You're a Good Person

I Said I Want to Say Goodbye

Neuroblastoma and the End of a Body

Love Me on Year Off Days

So...

I made all the posts back into drafts.

I had to hide words to fix things.

Because I was selfish and didn't think I would hurt anyone's feelings.

I used people's full names, and I should not have.

"A" called me when I was in a condo in Port Aransas.

I did not answer. I think he called 3 times. I called him back.

It was one of the most uncomfortable and embarrassing conversations I have had.

It was mostly about him and her reading this blog.

I have done a lot more dumb bad things since. I am sorry. I need more respect [for everyone]. I need more conscience and reality. [ need to pay attention ]

I guess I can post this.

...

I have been listening to the best of Grand Buffet on youtube for about an hour.


I have been drinking a lot of alcohol.


I have some rather serious problems with myself ... my consciousness, my reasoning, and my belief.


I feel really bad about not going to the classes that I started.


My mom said I could live with her and she will support me, if I get an associates degree, then a job.


I just did not feel like going to class...


so I did not.


I walked or drove and listened to the radio or podcasts. I sat in the library. I wrote. I read. I ate junk.


I wonder if I can start doing work and going to class and pass.


Because I may have missed too many classes.


Yeah


I just need to to do physics homework........


But I think I will not...


I want to, though.


I should sit on a chair.


Now I sit.


I will open my physics homework web page after I end this sentence.

I did that.

I will do homework. I will think and try until I understand what I need to to pass the class.


I did three problems....


I've listened to Human Milk on MySpace, off and on for about an hour.


P O S S I B L E


I watched a bit of Highway to Hell on Nat Geo this morn. I liked it a lot. I almost cried. Family. Alaska... or Washington or Canada...


I have 3 hours to sweep the porch, as Mom asked me to do.


I had planned on beginning earlier today.

A person came to mow our lawn today.



I am listening to Beta Band Spotify radio... real good... Alex texted me, asking what I am doing. In my last text to him, I asked if he has time to hang out with me tomorrow.

I hope I go to see him tomorrow.


All I ate today was Ramen noodles, picante chicken flavor, with butter.


It is a bit after 3:30 pm.


I have 5 more days off. I forgot for a bit that I have no class on Tuesday.


I think I should go to Austin with Mom anyway. I can visit a tutor and try to catch up on Physics.


I am unfocussed to an unhealthy degree.


I had a cup of coffee in the past hour.


I think I want to eat something soon.


Mom and I ate HEB pizza last night.


We watched an episode of The Knick.


I drank and took a walk to the top of the hill on Cutting Horse.

Then I got in the hot tub.


I need to go back to my homework.


{: Do not be false. Do not fall off the mind of God.

Do hold the hands of human ideals and forage the massive fruits of physical labor.


. . . .

My Ultimate Goal and My Ultimate Dream

O.K. This is my ultimate goal, my ultimate dream.


Perfect things and perfect people

fly thru space

each new person

has the best

education and access

to all human knowledge

and everyone understands

understanding and the

Nature of all existence

and the Creators of

eternity and Souls

and Bodies and Life

and Love and everyone

is perfect almost

all of the time and

time will end and Eternity is Perfect.


...


I went to Italy, and I turned the whole country upside down. I slipped it into the hole in my nipple, and I chomped and I chomped, and all the Sicilians broke the insides of all of my teeth. They all poured out like leprechaun meat. They all ate they're own semen and feminine fluids. They flew down to the bottom of the ocean. Aaaand... there was one panda in the exact center of the country of China. It raised its left fist facing inward, and it raised its middle finger at the camera, and it winked with its left eye, and it chewed on some bamboo. Bret's got a panda on his T-shirt. Murray's talking to him.

And I left Italy, I left Sicily, and they put some sharp metal instruments into my back skin. I fell all the way back to America. I fell into my house in the middle of Texas. And fell into my bed sheets and my mattress. And I fell asleep immediately. And I ate birthday cake ice cream in my sleep. And all the Italians and all the 30 Rock cast and crew put pants on my legs and swimsuit area, and they wrapped a big, old [duck sound] around my midsection. And they stuffed my head into a heavenly deep fryer that was upside down and made of cotton candy that's been boiled for a billion years in hell fire, and it's turned into soft, soft, squishy glass (*whisper* That's the opposite of the real way that glass is like.) And it felt so good, I melted into a slushee machine in the South Bronx in 19,901... years after the year that Jesus Christ was born. And it all smoothed over and poured out into the hands of a lonely orphan child, whose name was Captain Justice Face. And the child put the creamy goo onto the child's own back of the head area, and it slipped into the child's skin-tight jetpack... And the child expanded 1,000 times its own age. And it fell thru the earth, and that's when time ended.

Eternity turned into a little green pea. God snorted it up their nose hole, and I felt like you just woke up with a slight feeling of going to sleep...

The end.

I think that's all I wanna do.

That's good enough, right?

I think I'm gonna type everything... that story I just told... about going to Italy.

Uhhhmmm. O.K.

Oh... Freak... Shhhh...



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Treatment of the most important thing is that the company. I'm not going on . the only one of the best way to go. I will not be a great day and age. you will be the best of all.