Tuesday, September 25, 2018
Listening to Slate - Working - How Does a Child Life Specialist Work? and New York City Archaeologist . . .
Hey, safety first - I love You -
What do we talk about when
We talk about Pain and Death?
Birdman.
Memories -
Cats - man.
New York City Archaeologist . . .
Lower back and hip tightness -
Bricks fall off of an elementary school wall
and onto my skin and muscles and nerves.
Drink red and wite wine
Blue feel
Nostalgia
Ambiguous
Death
Eternal Life
Happy Face
Smiley person
Personal development
Read about History and the Future
the ends . . . .
Monday, September 24, 2018
Saturday, September 22, 2018
Harmon Family Time Home Feel [ Frog Complex episode ]
I was born
at my mug shot contradiction . . .
I was snow cone
at my birth day
tampon radio addiction . . .
The end . . .
PS Sing :
I'm gettin' a good
job for my birth
day. It's only Saturday
on the Earth Life Time Line . . .
Friday, September 21, 2018
edit self
They all say hey Greg. And I say hey. I go to the porch.
Everything is beyond beautiful. Like this is an unbelievable Heaven,
white cotton and blue denim. Deep black hair. Holy brown eyes.
. . . The floor in front of the couch is slippery.
Tears stream down my face for 30 minutes strait
because I am overcome by bliss, ecstacy, nirvana, heaven
and completion
and
weariness.
Sure
that is what happens
.
I need to help myself stop this mad ness ,
Deplorable , soul consuming , time killing
gross fantasies
I am sorry , Everyone .
I am going to stop . And do anything other than do something
like this again .
The End
Love ,
make Love on Earth
She becomes the size of Earth and I the size of Mars
the hImalayas
Life-creating milk for the
Cosmos .....
We have a 400 billion year-Long organization and get almost nothing done
I get a 40 beer-Long bar on the Planet Moon, and we all laugh and Hug FriendLily
Real Ist :
It is some time after the year 2020 A. D.
I am driving through Waco, Texas.
So nice
to be ignored.
[ no sarcasm , honest ]
but realy
i need your help
, every one needs help
always . . . to live .
If you want some one to die
, just ignore any one , your self , every one .
to Live . . . Help . . . Attention . . . to Love .
I know what to do .
You know some thing . . .
I do not know why I am doing
What is my intention
What is my purpose
listening to Harmontown - frog comploex
it is all most done
yea , just like 30 seconds
i guess it is interesting
i would Love to know exactly what i should do Now
i love to be inter esting
Internet, Inside Me: One and One Half Glasses of A to Z Pinot Noir.com
Singing :
I Will Never Forget You :
You Are My Best Friend Forever ! ! ! !
so yeah . . . . . . .
head . . . . . audib lee . . sighh . . . a [ sounds like uh ] gain [ sounds like Gin, a hard G....... gee zussss c.....
A whispered and slurred , manic and depressed uhhh song :
sh - just don't know how
sh - just don't know care
i keep on doin' that
sh - just keep on doin' that . . . . .
dooooo
ohhhhh
kayyyyyy
Talk you later
money
.
by.
Thursday, September 20, 2018
We Leave on a Movie Channel for Company
^ ^ ^ & < > <
Watching The Mountain
Be Tween Us, the bear trap
came out of nowhere trap
Ouch . . . babies .
I no longer want to text Him [ i did because it was good for us, i think ]
I still want to measure my worth.
or do i . . . ?
okay . . . . close to 5 years i guess . . .
Listening to New Birth in New England,
I do not remember hearing it; this may be my first time.
I like it is nice . . . babies
I took some pills and drank robo tussin.
I have been drinking sweet cold black tea.
I like it.
I feel a buzz. I hope my mom does not worry about me.
I Heart Huckabees was on a few hours ago.
What did I want to share about that . . .
Any way
Mom has been crying
and frustrated
talking to Insurance people
on the phone
and learning she might need to pay
about 4 thousand dollars a year
for her diabetes medications.
Listening to Send in the Clowns - Mark Kozelek, very quiet.
I hope we watch two or three episodes of Baskets tonight.
I just rememberd that Mom is going to the Open House
at her grand children's elementary school.
I want to stay home and be alone.
But I really
do not want to let myself Degrade, Devolve
and watch or listen to
Bad or evil
content on line . . .
or just get lost
in my Fantasy
Life
of Eternal Pleasure . . . i guess . . .
in . . . sanity.
I just want perfect self-control. To be positive, productive, respectable, respectful, loved, at least lovable . . .
loving . . . reasoning . . . reasonable . . . rational . . . godly . . . ascending . . . Aaron, our friend . . . our friends . . .
So good . . . so correct . . . so relax... . . . books . . . my body . . . souls . . . Real De Tails -
Oh yeah,
It was Brad's poem on I Heart Huckabees
I had to write something
I may as well share
my innermost fears
of helplessness
and hopelessness
and cheer { - :
Why
Did
You . . . ?
You say
I say
No one
I am going to be Okay
Some Day
Again . . .
Jees
THis
may be too long
To Read
I love you.
Everyone.
Yes
I am
in dulgent
.
okay
good bye
for real
God love us
-
Greg . . . . sighh . .
Most Fourth , Random finger swiping on phone keyboard , Text to My Brothers
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Tuesday, September 18, 2018
Stuff . . . on " Our Creed " by R. G. Aaron M.
. . . . . . .
I like stuff
and i like things
and I know what choo mean
by nothing at all.
I like stuff
and I like sings
and i know what cha means
by nuh sings at all . . . . . ! . . . !
ahhhhhhhhhhh
ohhhhhhhhh wow
I wish my B. A. C.
were .04 or more right Now . . . \ :
Say Tha happy
Say you are Happy
I Do
Not
Care .
Anyyy
Thing
At
All
Where
Ever
Who
Ever
I Wish
They
Were
I Am
Say
I
Thank
You
For
Ever
For Listen
Them
I do
They Are
Why
Complete
And
Syncopate
Co Equal
Science
Loving
Eternal
And
Gift
Answer
Wonder
Love
Mystery
Uhhhhhhhhhhh
FE BE i J I U j FE
Feel
Every
Beginning
Even
i
Jesus
invites
us
Justify-ing
Forms of
Excellence
.
I got no idea to get Views,
I got everyone to Use.
You Tube
- Not True
I am going to eat at Noon,
I am going to sleep at Noon.
Probable Popcorn, Pop-able Problem
Maybe Death, Movie Theater Dim Depth
She is the Rainbow,
She is of Rainbows . . .
Do Not
Bore them or
Give them Fright -
Scareful -
Be careful . . .
Be Yourself -
Do not bore yourself
with evil
or run from any meaning . . .
Catch a Conversation
Monday, September 17, 2018
i wrote this 1 or 2 years a go , i do not know why this is now
Thank you.
Ears and other people.
My dog's neck has zero necks.
4 necks.
Cows are dogs. Dogs are other dogs. I have four dogs.
Six cows.
My other people have this number. They came
to the rescue of the aide. I had AIDS but no people.
Six dogs with six cow AIDS. On one afternoon
in 2013 in Austin, Texas one summer,
to the downtown hospital I sent him.
A gangrenous man inside his abdomen.
At the state mental hospital what, they cut
funding 15 percent. From behind cuttin'
him open in a hallway they found
green and blue Easter eggs what.
That is now. 85 million Americans,
2 billion dollars!
Sunday, September 16, 2018
seem to seem , okay then , later . . . . . . fall : mkJNVDOIWHB7RC , J
You seem almost normal
Why do you seem almost normal
Why do you seem almost normal only now
Why do you seem almost normal only now already
all ready
?
I pee on the backyard and a tree
I listen to the latest from
Yo La Tengo and Broken Social Scene
and Nujabes
I am good at Stuff . . . like What ever
ha , heh , sort of , simile , smile
I keep on to try again .
The Honestly Awesome Number of the Present Now and the Only More Awesome Institutional Arrangement of Space-Time of the Future
. . . : ]
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Associate
Micro Nutri
My grow new tree
Tree man
man of war
war horse
horse and buggy
buggy computer software
wear and tear
tear your eyes out
eyes out, sky's out
sky scraper
scrape skin
skin and bone
bone marrow donation
donate school supplies
camping supplies
boot camp
boot straps
raspberry bootlace stuck to teeth
rotten roots
bleeding gums murphy
papa murphy
pizza dough
dough boy
boys and girls club
club foot
foot long sub
sunken submarine
sunken eyes
eyes without a face
book of john the baptist
baptist church
sunday service
ice cream sundae
cream of the crop
crop photos
photons
gluons
glue from horses
war horse
man of war
tree man
My grow new tree
Micro Nutri
ents
Friday, September 14, 2018
Safe under a moon
with your toes
under sand grains -
You're safe with a reliable light source -
soft toes in smooth sand,
romantic temporary,
rest and excel beyond expectation. . .
-
Everything is different
Everything is okay now
Every One is good
Good Graces by Zammuto
Nothing to Do
Nothing to Be
Nothing to Say
No Think
No Type -
I lie on my bed,
Tire without,
Am at the end,
Word weigh too heavy.
I weigh myself, my mind,
Tire too far,
Spread out ocean limits,
Our planet matter spread through space -
Grateful for pain and pleasure
Vision, Grace, Movement, Gratitude
Self and Others
More
Reach
Stretch
The Body
Safe, Healthy, Eternal
Merge
Feel
Al right , that ' s enough for now , I hope you have a good life , you .
Thursday, September 13, 2018
Engine - Neutral Milk Hotel, Additional Lyrics
"And sweet babies cry for the cool taste of milking
that milky delight that invited us all
and if there's a taste in this life more inviting
then wake up your windows and watch as those sweet babies
crawl away ay ay . . . "
from me and from you
Today ,
but tomorrow is a new day . . .
something
i forgot . .
oh well
[:
bye bye
now
So ... how do we
make Chuck E. Cheese
more Mom-friendly ?
I heard that on a commercial.
I thought it was weird, and I sang a song.
I shall never forget, probably.
I am so good at poems
I want to be a good boy . . .
I watched all the Purple Boys commercials
the first 5
twice today.
I drank about three or four glasses of wine
in the past two hours.
My mom and I are about to eat a pepperoni flatbread from Wal-Mart.
Okay,
The End
I love you,
Greg.
We will probably watch A Wrinkle in Time
but I hope we watch two or more episodes
of Baskets.
An Ongoing Letter to Myself in One Year (as of the Creation of This Title), March 2019, When 30 Years Will Have Passed Since My Conception
18:22
March Twenty---- The timer for the frozen dinners went off.
My mom and I ate Turkey, Stuffing, Mashed Potatoes, Gravy, Green Beans, and Carrots.
Marie Callender's
We watched A Man Called Ove.
It was good.
It's 20:54
March Twenty Sixth
Two Thousand Eighteen
Before dinner I ate Boom Chicka Pop, White Cheddar Popcorn.
I drank a glass of Paris Valley Road Cabernet Sauvignon.
I drank three more glasses.
I ate more Boom Chicka Pop after dinner.
I ate Thin Golden Oreos dipped in whole milk.
I felt pretty bad... gluttonous.
Three days ago I got A Stroll with William James from the central Austin Public Library.
I have read about 40 pages.
I think it is the most important part of my life right now. I love it.
I am looking forward to going to Andee and Aaron's house on Sunday, in 6 days.
I dreamed about Andee this morning. Part of it was bad, sexual. The last part, she wanted us to live together, and I was very excited, in love.
I think about Andee a lot.
I miss her every day.
I feel bad about my choices.
I have been almost crying more than once every day. Sometimes I let the tears go.
I cried a few hours ago when I read about Emily Dickinson's life.
i am going now
-----'-
April 16th
I want this to continue and end more hopefully.
I read about 5 pages of A Stroll with William James today.
I am sitting at a picnic table at Dick Nichols park near Oak Hill library. I really don't want to answer the interview questions that they will ask me. I hope we get along well. My main motivation is to avoid disappointing my mom, and I hope I only ever lie to her about little details.
Also I want to be proud of myself for having enough will power to follow through with something difficult for me to do, going to a job interview being among the most difficult, top 5 probably......
Bye for now my love(:
It went well.
I want to be more relaxed and rational.
I'm probably not schizophrenic. But I like that word.
Random kind of:
Portabello mushrooms are good for growing hair on The backside of weird elephants.
And the diet mountain dew I ate in 4th grade is made of Siamese kittens
april 19th
I was just watching porn. I had resisted for almost a week. I started early this morning looking at photos of Julie again.
It is 6:58 a.m. Mom does not leave for work until 11.
Yesterday was all right and especially difficult:
I read about 10 pages, which is more than I've read in the past week I think.
The first thing I did, at about 5 am, was search for Elvis Perkins and read an article about him and his first album, on the Guardian online.
I liked it. He is more interesting than I could imagine. Strange family story
Aaron and Andee talked a lot to me while I was in their kitchen two days ago.
I felt bad because Aaron wants me to read more
and I have distracted myself constantly
starving my intelligence, stunting my healthy growth.
Trying to reply to him about history and failed governments, I stammered and sweated.
i like andee a lot
as i have told you.
i like aaron, but our friendship often reminds me of what i dislike about myself
but it feels better, more important, more true, real, eternal
what am i going on about
friends
meaning
purposes
life
laughing
person
poop
pips
tits
lips
hold me now in your long arms
dear judge
. . . .
i want to finish the new yorker shorts i began the past couple days
i just peed out by the south of my house
i felt good
my thoughts felt clear and honest
sun was peaking thru the trees
it is 7:71
no, it says 7:31
theory.
a ten thousand word thought
every tree on earth
every oxygen respiring plant cell
every nitrogen rich insect
every bedroom of every 30 year old father and his 9 year old daughter
every drop of coffee
every drop of tea
every bubble inside of a liquid or a human
Every possible arrangement of the bones and joints of living human skeletons
The End
Drops That Never Drip
From the Wholes of Bodies
April 28th 2018
I just heard the song Feeling Good about Feeling Good.
I just had a little diarrhea.
Less than an hour ago I signed up at BeTheMatch.org
I heard about it on Good Mythical Morning
I've been watching that show, catching up every week.
Also Podcasts, We're No Doctors, Ear Biscuits, Harmontown
I just saw Andee and Aaron and Malakai and Bobby.
Malakai's last soccer game.
Kind of strange
I lied to Aaron about how far I am in A Stroll with William James.
I said I am about 100 pages further than I am.
Mom said she might bring home Golden Chick, fried chicken, or catfish.
It is almost 5 p.m.
She has spent the day with Tim, Chelsea, and their kids.
After I got home from seeing Aaron and his family I drank Wine.
I read some of my journals from a few years ago, and looked at drawings I made.
I ate a slice of chaeddar cheese, ate a few M and Ms and a Brussels Peppridge Farms cookie and drank a little coke zero mixed with the wine, and I made hot chocolate with whipped cream, and i drank a little, I'll go drink more now. I waited for it to get less Hot.
hmm
boylife in america
cody chesnutt
me and you and everyone we know
hmm
fugazi
sweet and low
- - May 2nd, 2018, 12:35 p.m.
I am going to post an exerpt of this letter onto this blog after I finish typing this. now.
i did it and i read it
i changed the title to try to better reflect my reality
i like the look of No Capital Letters and No Punctuating.
and i like that it takes less effort to type that way
and i like using caps and punks when i want to
i just ate two Reese's cups
they were okay
semi satisfying
a recent Gibi asmr video is on the TV now
She is testing markers
and whisper in . .
From Home by LCD Soundsystem :
Look around you
You're surrounded
It may get better
I changed that last line
The coffee is not even bitter
Be cause
what is the difference .
That was from Someone Great by them .
who is your favourite person who you have talked with directly voice to voice
I guess i mean someone who you have met in person
pick another person who you have never met or talked with
you want to meet them
eat food
make laugh
maybe make love
maybe make a child AKA human
walk around some buildings or shelter
talking
listening
smelling
pooping
cleaning
smiling
crying
Gibi and me
Gillian Jacobs and me
ACC computer lab girl and me
ten thousand futures
Bur gun dee
cooking
planning
watching
feeling
kissing
digesting
learning
now i am watching Good Mythical Morning
i'll turn it off now
i wanna read more Jacques Barzun and William James today
i recorded myself read out loud and talk for over one hour and thirty minutes today
now it is 1:19 p.m.
oh god . . . what am i going to do.
why am i so annoying
how did he do all those difficult and amazing works
how did he make them happen
how did he make himself
something of himself
someone
So Me O Nee
why do i get so tired so often
why do i feel so overwhelmed and unwilling
Restless . Bored . i r responsible
frustrate
Belong
Be Long
Be Ware
A Ware
What Is A Ware?
My dic sais Anything for Sale
or Pottery
Like Earthenware
Tupperware
but that is plastic
a name
I heard some good songs today
or i like them
i want to listen to more now
that is enough of typing this letter journal for today
bye bye for now
-
Hi, it is 9:42 a.m. on September 13th, 2,018 a.d.
I thought my mom might be dead, because it is about 2 hours later than she usually gets out of bed.
I looked at her a few minutes ago and she was breathing.
I am listening to "Si, Paloma" by Sun Kil Moon.
It is pretty good [:
I do Knot now.
I made a Mix up.
Re Verse
I have almost finished a cup of coffee.
I want to poop soon.
I will read Simmon's Cohen biography as I sit on Toilet.
I imagined going to Emergency Room or hospital after calling 911 about Mom not breathing or Whatever
What I will wear
What I will do first
Before
First Aid
Now the song "Alesund" is on
See what he says
I do knot know . . .
silly word
world Pup
Pooper
Dooper
I wish You were in the yester Hello World Yellow To be Name For them Ever to Hum Juicy Sons and Former
Taxxing
Wallabee, Wishes, My Keen Oliphant
They Rhythm Rim
I am not the Word on Their Pieces or Parts
They are a They
Not he she Biology
Whatever you say
is good
you are god
Let us go
Goes
With it
It goes
They go . . .
That is More than Enough
I am going to start a new Blog on this account
it is going to be a straightfoward Journal
clean, orderly Prose, not Poetry
I guess I will post song things and Poems on this Ego youthful blog.
My new blog is called
Good Enough to Know, Older Greg Blog
Okay, I want to go make it now, talk to you later, Babies, Nice people, homies, children, some holy light
Slow Morning
Slow tries to perform
but slows
too slowly.
It's not today ; it's only this morning.
It's not today
it's only
This Morning
Wednesday, September 12, 2018
Sort a Song
I am going to sleep tonight
with a bed under my head
with no body in sight
and I feel like a grave yard.
" You owe me two thousand
hours of work "
Oh, sorry.
I am out of stock.
" Did you call ahead to make sure? "
I did not.
" Well, you owe me everything anyway now. "
I cannot do this.
" Can you go to Jail for me? "
Yes, I can. Are you always asking me questions?
" No,
" This is just to warn you. You may start your work now. "
I am going home.
I spent the day hockey puck a wall on the sunny old sky
This was my job.
" Are you sure you are sorry
because the Weary Word
forsake the Dry Toad
The Wet baby frog on the Asphalt
Dear To Me
Will you take the number
write the name
save the wisdom
wish the Folders
They every Been Old Hold Body
Serious too fellow
Been Person Ship
Aloft Pen Hood
Personal Connection
Sort the non sense
Soul of the miracle
The End
.
Words , a L A D
Exxon Valdeez Valdez
Are you sure about that ?
Valdeez Valdez
I'm sorry about that .
Dunston checks in ?
I don ' t know any other names !
Exploding Whale , h uh ?
It is a crime to be a monkey fighter
Monday, September 10, 2018
Nurture Walk Morning Song
I like your lips.
I like your tongue and teeth.
I like your larynx, pharynx and vocal folds.
I like your vulva.
I like your vagina, cervix and uterus.
I like your ovaries and fallopian tubes.
I like your heart.
I like your lungs.
I like your muscles, nerves and bones.
I like your neck, head and shoulders.
I like your arms, back, abdomen and legs.
I like your hands, feet, fingers and toes.
I like your mucus, sweat, blood and tears.
I like your skin and pores.
Okay, I like your organs, tissues, fluids, cells and chemicals.
I like your light and dark matter.
I like your energy.
I like your eyeballs, irises and pupils.
I like your lids and brow.
I like your forehead, cheeks and chin.
I like your ears.
I like your nose.
I like your hairs.
I like your clothes.
I like your Mind.
I like your thoughts.
I like your choices.
I like your chest.
I like your breasts.
I like your butt.
But I love you.
But I love you and I cannot stop.
You may think I may be sane;
I am planning a good escape
from this Rainy-day-fund existential Plane.
But I love you too.
A Song
Sunday After Noon
I don't even know about these longshoremen,
I don't even know about these longshoremen,
I don't even know about these longshoremen,
What do you think we should do?
I got a job. I got a job. I java job. I hava job. I godda job.
I got a job. I got a job. I java job. I hava job. I godda job.
Monday Morning
Hey ,
Buffalo Bills ,
how can
you
train yourselves ?
Buffalo Bills ,
how can
you
train yourselves ?
Friday, September 7, 2018
prepare . to . relax . this . weakened
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Sunday, September 2, 2018
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I stood and felt the good part of Pain
9 - 1 - 2018 A. D.
854 pm
-
What are you doing
rite now ? "
-
Am I doing anything ,
what is that supposed to mean .
I am annoying to say the least ,
when not Trying to be anything .
Leave it alone ;
( I lined through the next line )
Focus on what can be done .
of course I should ; of course I could ; how can I not ; how can I want something and its opposite ; I do not want to do something , but I do it ; I want to do something , but I do not ; I want to do nothing , but I can not
I got to be the Richest
most loved doctor alive
rite now . Past is different .
One billion Years of future . . .
Doing Something
Construct a Product
Practice Being Good at Making
Functional Beauty by Will
and All the help I can and
Should Get ,
The end
by bye .