Sunday, July 29, 2018


The don't of they every

Is the Prove of them being.

Justice brushed my hear purest

Intellect earned who skill mitts.

Hio grow tea Easter of then skin

Whyn't port sun bring a knot

Yes por favor him which to fly

I said from that certain but there

And we did So To now do . . . .

Friday, July 27, 2018


Now, it is 12:46 PM, and I'm at my house.

I was lying in bed last night, thinking of my family coming for a birthday party this weekend, then I remembered that I have been spending the last 8 months at my mom's house, and I should have gotten a job by about 6 months ago. People wonder, what have I been doing?

I don't know. I've been listening to Dear Hank and John, about 40 episodes the past week. I like it.

I want to shower in the next 2 hours. I guess it's been about 5 days.

My mom will get home in about 2 hours. We will go to HEB and recycle stuff at the elementary school.

I wonder what shirt I will wear.

I excuse myself.

You got a story.

I just texted Aaron, asking what they are doing on or for Andee's birthday. He replied, "Nothing. [:" - I thought about it for a bit, then texted, "All right (:"

ok bye






Friday, July 20, 2018

I Distill. Leonard Cohen. Biography. Morning Walk Song


Nineteen

19 People

The Name of the Forest

The Name of the Forest

Sun.

Sun.

Sun.

ss.. nn..

I

need

to

drive

to

the

house

of

my

friends,

be-

cause

they

invited

me

to

a

birth-

day

par-

ty.

I

plan

to

stay

for

two

or

three

or

four

hou-

rs.

What

are

your

plans

be-

fore

and

af-

ter

the

death

of

each

per-

son

and

why?



Tuesday, July 17, 2018

Functional Human Brain


After We Die
Before We Grow
Functional Human Brains

Before We Die
After We Grow
Functional Human Brains

The Crest
of a Forest
with a View
of the Air


                                   Natturlee was born at 2:30 P.M. on West 44th Street at 2:30 P.M. The next dawn, the shiny silver 30-story building warm 33 degrees. Mother, 29 years old, and Father, 39 years old, take the walk down into the food and drinks place, where the walls diet, die and relax, 52 weeks a year, for 50 years and 4 weeks ago. That's why Mister Weshpeer modeled some Takings, Molds and Modes, Fluorescent Lights, and Galvanized Magnet buses and ferries, so that is what is was.

To BE Continued

Monday, July 16, 2018

Your Best Attention



Don't forget.

Don't forget

and you won't be forgotten.

I won't let

you fall below the Horizon.

If your God

is the only path

to a brighter tomorrow,

say that you will

be the same,

take all that you got,

get it all in Good order

and give it your best attention.





Dreams


In a fantasy land, I sit at a large round white conference table, all the seats filled with men.
Trump sits to my right, a short-brown-bearded husky middle-aged white guy to my left.
Someone gives a shot glass filled with alcohol to each man at the table, going around more than once.
One round is an orange-juice-like drink.
People encourage me to drink each shot that I am given and I do.
It's like a convention and people are trying to promote their alcohol with free samples.
After being given a whiskey type drink, Trump says Two and holds up a peace sign.
The server hesitates, since they are supposed to give each person only one.
Trump says Two again, motioning his fingers, like he expects to get what he wants, like he is special.
Everyone around is awkward, expecting the server to make an exception, then they do.
I drink two of the same kind in a row.
There are 8 or more shots in front the guy to my left, somehow I get the idea that each shot represents a letter in 'Star Wars' . . . .


Saturday, July 14, 2018

This Is for You


Hi, you.

I am glad that you are here with me now.


I am listening to Sunday Roast by Courtney Barnett.

I listened to part of the album Tell Me How You Realy Feel... just before.

I like it a lot. I probably like all of her songs, at least a little. I like Courtney Barnett as an artist and person.

Kurt.

Nothing hurts... Sometimes a lot.

I drank two white wines in the past few hours, a sweet and a dry.

I am a little ashamed. I want to drink all the wine.

I keep thinking of buying coconut rum. My mom bought some about a month ago. I drank most of it.

I was just reading some Edward Gorey.

I am anxious, waiting for my mother and her cousin to get back to this house... any second.

Mom got me a taco from Torchy's.

Patrick texted me, asking if I want a taco.

I guess Mom's phone died.

I requested a migas taco.

We walked and drove around Bastrop...

I felt anxious about myself and what I should do, alone in this house... again today.

I feel better.

Often I tell myself I don't care. About whatever or everything.

Oh yeah, I want to take a walk now.

B right b ack. I will probably continue this soon after I get back from myy walk, if I really go...

Okay, now.


That was fun.

Mom, Tiff, and I just walked for at least 30 minutes, the usual, Sanders Estates.

It was pretty dark.

I walked Cutting Horse alone.

I paused near 1441.

There was a sliver of moon shine in ...

I love that experience.

I talked to myself... almost all the time.

I almost cried.

I remembered 'What is best in life?'

I guess I prefer to start sentences with the letter or word 'I'


Of course, I know that I could have made better decisions.

I decide to stop thinking, then do whatever feels good enough

at the moment.

Help Your Self by Courtney Barnett is on now.

Walking on Cutting Horse, I thought that alcohol makes me happy.

Obviously. But I probably have a problem...

Only occasionally though, since I have almost no money.


I am sure that I should just go to sleep, in a few minutes.

Floss, brush.

I should read instead of typing this.

There are several works I know I should read.

Sleep is the best for me now I am sure.

I have heard/read that Sleeping is a problem for millions, maybe billions of humans.


It is Strange that it seems that

Tiffany staying at this house too

Has had a profound impact on me.


Mom just discovered I drank most of the wine.

I was embarrassed and awkward for a few seconds.

She called me a Lush... mostly playfully, jokily I guess.


I have to stop...

So many times, I have thought, I just want to do nothing... except think...

then, I think, I will just do what is well-thought-out, reasonable, responsible, necessary, best for me...

But I have almost never done that.


Okay

Good bye

now

!












Every Day Schedule for Greg Wredberg


1. Get up at dawn. Or after 8 hours of sleep.
2. First 30 Minutes: Walk outside. Stretch / do Yoga.
3. Write dreams, or anything, at least 1 page.
4. First Hour: Maybe clean self. Eat good breakfast. Floss/brush teeth.
5. Rest of morning: Read.
6. Around Noon: Eat good lunch.
7. Write.
8. Read something else.
10. Eat good last meal. Floss/brush. Clean/wash.

When i wonder what to do i will do one of these things i can do every day to live well:

- examine my body, feelings, thoughts, acts
- meditate, yoga, workout, walk, jog, work on breath, posture, appearance, openness
- eat healthy, protein, egg, yogurt, nutrients, fiber, veggies, salad, all natural, responsible, morning, noon and when i am hungry
* read books - research - reflect - reflect - write - appreciate art, music, movies
- plan good life
- be practical, rational, generous,
* respectful
- check in
- Repay



Notes, "Our Home School Mission Statement" (by Aaron) 7-13-18 17:18



Schooling -- habituation to theoretic consciousness - Maths -

Spiritual aspiration - enlightened wonder - in Love with God -

Fulfill conscious intentionality - Notion of Goodness itself

Be more than human

As good for good itself.

Is what I am doing worthwhile?

Yes.         I go on, Strain of Finite Achieving.


After School

Assimilate Abstractions

blunt blush bulk

congregate, collect, culminate

derive decline distractions

elevate equality earnest

foster fullness focus

goal-orient grown gullet

honey holistic home-spin

integrate island, Icons.

jolly joke jewish kind

kinfolk kismet

last longing loquacious

men memory muster

nuns new number

open orange Omnipotent

perfect purpose purple

ricing reason road

surveying success senses

timing trust tally

useful ultimate ubiquitous

vacancy valuing venerable

women

walking washing wake

x-it xenomorphic x-cite

yoke You-n-I-Verse

con, vex, Yinyang

Zilent Zuper Zeven







. . .

.

Ever-Present Goal



Because we can,
Humans should think and act
Towards the ever-present goal
Of always creating a better future.
By better I mean
Every being can
Experience ever-increasing
Friendship, delight, hope, joy,
Understanding, grace, beauty, love
And all the other Good.

Friday, July 13, 2018

Journal


Hey.

3.

Tiffany is here at 139 Michele Drive, Bastrop, Texas, US of A.
I just started a 2nd glass off Riesling.
It is 22:16.

She and my mom are watching Sharp Objects, episode 1.
I wanted to play Escape Goat online a minute ago, but the internet is too slow.
I am sitting up on my bed, pillow on my lap, tablet atop pillow.

I read about half of the homeschool mission statement that Aaron emailed me. It's deep; I like it.
I am going to Aaron's in 9 days for Malakai's birthday. I'm nervous but glad for the opportunity.
I saw Aaron and Andee at HEB yesterday. It was fun. Mostly Aaron and my mom talked.

2.

I am super ridiculous because I spent so much time making decks on tappedout.net.
I wasted most of yesterday.

I kind of watched and listened to Jesse and Dodger play Life Is Strange: Before the Storm.
It makes me smile: I feel cozy and childish and love and forgiveness and easy eternity.

1.

One sentence: tomorrow we breakfast at Maxine's, then farmer's market, then I'll stay home.

Computers.
Words.
People.
One Page.
Light.
Fire.
Heat.
Electrons, Quarks, Energy
Poop
Eyes
Rocks, Dirt, Water, Metal
Trees
Animals
Space
Time
Exact
Definition
Perfection
Is and Not
Eternity
God
I am Myself now
Here, I wonder. What will I do after I save this Document , Is this worth it , I should read it or
sleep ? Now . This is the end . I have about 20 or 30 more spaces for these letters . I love you
Good Bye













yes



Friday, July 6, 2018

My Gracious Goodness


Need to Think, which how is the most the time now to become what they need.

Number one, I am sitting typing this 139 Michele Drive

Uhh, almost Sweet potatoes and pork chops.

Uhm, TV on the Living Room, my Mother.

Number two, My brothers, and other family and friends, eating and talk or text, plans and futures.

Number 3. Hmm, Leftovers, Rectify, Good posture, Sleep, Work, Chores, Good body and hygiene and Love and Sex and Memories and People of the

Shapes Lines Textures Thoughts Pressures Weights Motions Lapses Lacks Bends Truths Drops Measures Colors Comparisons

number 4our

I should try to fix the

Soil, Earth, Atoms, Charts, Diagrams, Responsible agenda schedule curriculum, foreseen,

i mean I need to

organize, optimize

particle, pattern, Reasonable, Lofty

I wan a wife [ i wanto live a loving life with a loving spouse , maybe not , i got to do a lot. ]

man woman

on floors

right on time

Correct

Lands Roads Wheels Walls

Elbows Feet Fabric Mandible Stores Kitchens

Again Finally


All right, now I will tell you what I should do now

I will take the star

Metaphor

Good Grave

No waste

Make the person stand up straight

No cry, no fake smile or laugh

He could fight and save your Life

What is Realistic though

I understand Statistics and Economics

Just Water up there

A better whole Circle


Number five,

I am going to sleep in ten to twenty minutes

My ma has had a bad head ache

I read most of a New Yorker article about Pain research

Science Medicine

Unnecessary

Over-Reach

I focus on my Now.

I am itch scratch Computer Wet Sweat Heart Blood

Eyes, Vision, Muscle

Fatigue

You done know where you are

Little noise

Constant

Why and How

Why who?

All this to ask what?

I found the order.

The order of the order

The necessary What

Maybe throw away the candy

Realize

A pretty big house

A larger number of orfans

Practical infinite space light

Life growth

Inward growth

Perfection of Knowing

Control

Fit and belong

adapt evolve

Slow flow

water food

Appropriate

Like a guy I saw on a street

On a screen

Clean

Neat

Hair face Nice

Ready for anyone

The end i guess for this