OK. Pat and I were in the apartment. He had just bought Domino a new litter box to put in the dining room closet. The sliding door started closing on its own; it's outta whack like it wasn't fixed. This seemed to annoy Pat. I said I'll tell them tomorrow.

I wrote that first paragraph months ago. Patrick asked for the tape. I moved really slow. Put off by his attitude. He seemed annoyed with me. He said, sarcastically, 'Just phone it in', or something like that. I was painfully and tearfully frustrated. I quickly went to the business center to type this out. I typed that first paragraph then Patrick knocked on the business center door. I was startled.  I closed the blog page and let him in. I forgot what we did next.




Later peace

Huge Crushes

Erin Timony ,  Goodnight Moon ASMR

Kat Edmonson

1. Gillian Jacobs

2. Stevie Wynne Levine

Michelle Williams

Sucked into antimatter.

I love the sun.

I love the night. Eternal Night.

God's blanket. Violet Velvet.

Quietness.

Softness.

The Feeling.

Coating.

Sleeping on Ice.

I love trees.
I love deserts.
I love love.
I love I.

I eat corn.
I love corn.
I am corn.

I corn corn.
I corn I.

Aye aye, captive. Crunch.

I, captive, ate.

It's 330 am, turn on the Mexican soap opera channel.

Your girl ham

How   can my dream seem to change my whole attitude and perspective but I can recall nothing about it? Attitude and 3rd.

You wish you were a waste.

There is no cake

None of this is real.

My sleepy prison

I am the most passionate of myself.

The No One Dream

Bumpy Bus Ride!

Kill Jerry Seinfeld then kill myself [Alec Baldwin]

Doc Hollywood

Doctors are so stupid

Hey silly do you know anything about trees.

Took a laugh down last left lane

Justification of existence is impossible and unnecessary.

Poop.strep throat

Yodel love a blue boy

Pure burst of radio active energy

MTG is a male cavern.

Cannot See

Hearts to Bare

Sweaty White Skin behind phluffy dark cotton

Cheetos and Mountain Dew

Cheektowaga and Mountain View

Don't forget why you're doing this: Doritos.

I exercise lying on my back on the floor of my dark bedroom at 530 am.

Favourite Albums

1. Queen of All Ears
2. 
   
3. Spiritual State
4. 
   
5. Modal Soul
6. 
   
7. Love Supreme
8. 
   
9. Meditations
10. 
    
11. Live in Birdland - Coltrane
12. 
    
13. Platform - Holly Herndon
14. 
    
15. Sometimes I Sit and Think and Sometimes I Just Sit
16. 
    
17. Building nothing out of something
18. 
    
19. Lonesome crowded west
20. 
    
21. Everywhere and his nasty parlor tricks
22. 
    
23. The Moon and Antarctica
24. 
    
25. Good news for people who love bad news 
26. 
    
27. This is a long drive for someone with nothing to think about
28. 
    
29. The fruit that ate itself
30. 
    
31. Feels
32. 
    
33. Merriweather post pavilion
34. 
    
35. Strawberry jam , sung tongs, probably most Animal Collective
36. 
    
37. Team boo
38. 
    
39. Bring it back  ... And all mates of states
40. 
    
41. In the aeroplane over the sea
42. 
    
43. On avery island
44. 
    
45. Remember that I love you
46. 
    
47. Thunder thighs
48. 
    
49. Adventures of ghost horse and stillborn
50. 
    
51. La Maison de Mon Reve
52. 
    
53. Noah's ark
54. 
    
55. Grey oceans
56. 
    
57. Blazing arrow
58. 
    
59. The Craft
60. 
    
61. Nia
62. 
    
63. The way out
64. 
    
65. Thought for food
66. 
    
67. Lemon of pink
68. 
    
69. Lost and safe    [ and most of the Books ]
70. 
    
71. Funeral
72. 
    
73. Barbed wire kisses
74. 
    
75. Surrender
76. 
    
77. Give up
78. 
    
79. The Sunlandic twins ,  and all previous of Montreal
80. 
    
81. The knife
82. 
    
83. Deep cuts
84. 
    
85. Silent shout
86. 
    
87. Clap your hands say yeah
88. 
    
89. Fashion nugget
90. 
    
91. Motorcade of generosity
92. 
    
93. Comfort eagle
94. 
    
95. 69 love songs
96. 
    
97. Garfield
98. 
    
99. Minor love
100. 
     
101. The strokes
102. 
     
103. Room on fire
104. 
     
105. The white stripes
106. 
     
107. De stijl
108. 
     
109. White blood cells
110. 
     
111. Elephant
112. 
     
113. Get behind me, Satan
114. 
     
115. This is happening ! !!! !
116. 
     
117. Big science
118. 
     
119. Yellow house
120. 
     
121. Oh inverted world
122. 
     
123. Demon Days    [ probably some other Gorillaz ]
124. 
     
125. Apologies to the queen Mary
126. 
     
127. In case we die
128. 
     
129. Paparazzi lightning
130. 
     
131. Delete Delete I eat meat
132. 
     
133. I'm wide awake, it's morning
134. 
     
135. West
136. 
     
137. Grapefruit Clouds
138. 
     
139. Paint the Sky with Stars
140. 
     
141. Shepherd Moons
142. 
     
143. Daily Ever Dawning
144. 
     
145. The Low End theory
146. 
     
147. Hello nasty
148. 
     
149. Methlehem
150. 
     
151. Acapulco
152. 
     
153. Dan marino: important message
154. 
     
155. Let's get a tan
156. 
     
157. Yankee hotel foxtrot
158. 
     
159. Odelay
160. 
     
161. Mellow Gold
162. 
     
163. Abbey road
164. 
     
165. Let it be
166. 
     
167. Sgt. pepper's lonely hearts club band
168. 
     
169. Revolver
170. 
     
171. Rubber Soul
172. 
     
173. The white album
174. 
     
175. The Love Supreme
176. 
     
177. Meditations
178. 
     
179. Carrie and Lowell
180. 
     
181. Lost in Translation soundtrack
182. 
     
183. Song from the Bardo
184. 
     
185. Banga
186. 
     
187. Perfect Vision Triptych
188. 
     
189. Zammuto
190. 
     
191. The Beginning Stages of . . .
192. 
     
193. Is This It?
194. 
     
195. Room on Fire
196. 
     
197.  everything wants to be used for what it was made for
198. 
     
199. Ram
200. 
     
201. Born to Run  [ and maybe the next most famous Bruce ]
202. 
     
203. Hot fuss
204. 
     
205. The best adam green ,  Garfield or Minor Love maybe
206. 
     
207. teaser and the firecat
208. 
     
209. It's the ones who have cracked that the light shines through   [ and some other Jeffrey Lewis ]
210. 
     
211. Probably most of Leonard Cohen
212. 
     
213. And John Lennon
214. 
     
215. In Glendale
216. 
     
217. Five Years of Fireworks
218. 
     
219. Fade
220. 
     
221. Cannonballs, Cannonballs
222. 
     
223. The Cars
224. 
     
225. Plans
226. 
     
227. Once
228. 
     
229. Shepherd in a Sheepskin Vest  [and most Bill Callahan and Smog ]
230. 
     
231. Summer Is Gone
232. 
     
233. Earth into Aether
234. 
     
235. Nightly Never Ending     [ and most Bill Baird and Sunset ]
236. 
     
237. Let Go          ( avriL)
238. 
     
239. Soviet Kitsch
240. 
     
241. Begin to Hope
242. 
     
243. Californication
244. 
     
245. By the Way
246. 
     
247. All   McCarthy  Trenching  s
248. 
     
249. and then nothing turned itself inside-out

It's close to midnight. I am sitting in the business center of the Arts at Turtle Creek. I am alone.

I want to know myself... again, if I ever did.

I am shivering a little, half from cold, half from nerves.

I was scrolling thru facebook on my phone, laying on my bed.

I felt like hearing Will Is My Friend, so played it on youtube on my phone. It's still very beautiful.

I wanted to say something. I wanted to express myself. I wanted to be myself. I put on khaki pants and blue flip flips and took Patrick's apartment key and walked here while the song played. I thought of someone seeing me and hearing the song... something about hipsters... It's such a useless phenomenon. The word.

I listened to KVRX on the way home from work tonight. The program was Souvlaki Space Station. They play Shoegaze and dream pop. I liked the last song. I sat in the car and listened to it all. I opened the moon roof and looked at the cloudy lit up night sky and the tree.

Patrick came home with ingredients for sub sandwiches. We prepared and ate. I was cutting bread and cut into my left index finger about a quarter inch. It took at least fifteen seconds for it to start bleeding. It was a clean cut. I put a band aid on which is still on. Pat put on Curb Your Enthusiasm season 3 I think. He asked Bridgett if it was okay. She ate with us. Pat and I shared a can of Amy's split pea soup.

Before they got home, I was listening to my iRiver recording, Something I'm Not. I wanted to hear "Scary Parts of the World". I listened to it and "Do You Wanna.." I imagined it being widely heard, being known as Gregury Wredburg, and Chris Gethard listening to it. I would label it as Indoors Outsider Art.

It's eight after midnight.

I have been very lazy. I was off for 4 days in a row before today. I feel like I lost myself a little somehow. I just put on Passing Through by Leonard Cohen. There was nothing on before.

This morning I did not do laundry. I watched Dodger play Life is Strange parts 1 through 3.

Yesterday was insane too...

I woke at Mom's house in the morning.


I watched La Vie de Boheme again, because I missed a lot my first try.


Aaron texted me back. He mentioned a movie he was devastated by, "Les Bonnes Femmes"


The band is Languis... that's languish without an 'h'.


There is something about Saturday Night Live.


I am listening to a song called "touch a cloud"


Here I go tripllee spaccing.


Im sac4red bye