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Patrick and Bridgett left and Adam went to get blood again.

I ate Birthday Cake Oreos and milk.

Things seemed more sacred and important, more weighty and beautiful.

I connected with their talk of fear and appreciation.

Eve put on music and danced and I noticed her shoulders pushed forward and I pushed mine back and felt masculine and I wanted to have sex with Eve. She looked conquerable. They danced and I enjoyed watching and thought of context and human nature.

Second viewing: About a week later..

I am quite attracted to Eve. Ava is more physically appealing, but she's gross. I was really sad when they kicked her out, because their misunderstanding and inability to connect and make Ava a better person seemed hopeless.


The vampires call other people zombies because they act mindlessly. Being an animal is part of being human. The only animal part of vampires is their need for blood. Plants also have physical form.

With endless life, they are free to love fully and honestly. The zombies are not really alive. The vampires are lovers of the best things.

Im more of a [Stacks] girl myself" ?

We dont know shit about fungi, even though life couldnt exist without it.

it's always a bit weird with family

diamond the size of a planet that emits the sound of gigantic gong

I love that; I found it on Youtube... - Of course you did.

That certainly was visual.

Beautiful couple on the plane to Tangiers. Blue blouse, beard, ponytail. Square jaws.

- I'm so glad they go to Tangiers together.

Fear of their own imagination

Music of drinking blood, heightens senses, drinking Kefir, goosebumps.

Bottomlessly somber. Absurdly playful.

Fuck, Kit! (Fuck it!) "Look what the cat dragged in" Shakespeare?

I want to love only the most awesome things... It's practically painful...

I want to know what the words that woman singing in Tangiers mean.

It sounds like English, "I'll be happy, Marlowe." Or morrow..

She seems quite attractive. She's way too good to be famous? Fame comes with being misunderstood and people wasting resources on mindless unworthy adoration, false idolatry.. or something

This is probably the best:

How can you have lived for so long and still not get it?
This self-obsession is a waste of living.
It could be spent on surviving things, appreciating nature,
nurturing kindness and friendship, and dancing! 


Have I told you about Sparrows Dance? Or have you heard o' it. It seems similar. I saw it at the Austin FIld Fest a few years ago. It's on Youtube.com