Humankind at the Library

I felt weird at work yesterday. I was somewhat tense. It felt good to stand and walk. I moved slowly and carefully. I was somewhat tearful.

I saw a young woman come in with partially dyed or bleached hair. Her face and clothes and posture reminded me of Nikkin. I was highly excited for a while. She walked and stood and sat and read in the stacks. She looked at getting out of debt books. It was after seven when she came to checkout. I said hello. I had been nervous about being charming and attractive. She is somewhat tall and somewhat pretty. I saw what looked like a cameltoe on her. That made me uncomfortable. In my avoidance of eye contact I think I looked at it again and I hoped she didn't notice. She got some mysteries I think. She said thanks and I said you're welcome.

A man and his daughter I believe came to the desk. He had a shaved head, a slight reddish tan, a red Abe Lincoln beard, and a happy face. She was sort of pale, pretty, adult-looking, and had long dark hair. I thought she might have been his wife or something. It was a little weird. He said she was getting a card for the first time. I showed him how. He had a slight accent. I think they come from Mexico. They're names are Victor and Alayna. They reminded me of House of the Spirits. I really loved them and I wanted to cry. She brought up three books of Manga about Biochemistry and my heart melted. They were perfect for her.

These kids were using the computer. A girl of about seven I guess and two older boys. They kept printing random stuff, like a sparkly girl's name and a pig. The girl came up to pay about 5 times. They were sort of annoying but mostly polite. They are pretty skinny. I hope they're still alive, and everyone else. I wonder how many people die in this town every day.
When I left for lunch, they were leaving too, right in front of me. A boy thanked me twice for all my help. I said you're welcome and have a nice day. It was six p.m. They walked to the back of the property toward the baptist church and climbed the fence. I guess it was better than walking next to the road. I drove past them.

During a break I sat on the council ring outside and read one page of Too Far, ate a Nature Valley Fruit and Nut bar and an apple, both very sugary and sticky, and looked around at everything in a new way again.


Bye for now