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Micro Nutri

My grow new tree

Tree man

man of war

war horse

horse and buggy

buggy computer software

wear and tear

tear your eyes out

eyes out, sky's out

sky scraper

scrape skin

skin and bone

bone marrow donation

donate school supplies

camping supplies

boot camp

boot straps

raspberry bootlace stuck to teeth

rotten roots

bleeding gums murphy

papa murphy

pizza dough

dough boy

boys and girls club

club foot

foot long sub

sunken submarine

sunken eyes

eyes without a face

facebook

book of john the baptist

baptist church

sunday service

ice cream sundae

cream of the crop

crop photos

photons

gluons

glue from horses

war horse

man of war

tree man

My grow new tree

Micro Nutri

ents

I would appreciate you  if

you do not mention

anything about me

to anyone

ever . . .

Melted Horses

cry on the radio waves

Safe under a moon

with your toes

under sand grains -

You're safe with a reliable light source -

soft toes in smooth sand,

romantic temporary,

rest and excel beyond expectation. . .

-

Everything is different

Everything is okay now

Every One is good

Good Graces by Zammuto

Nothing to Do

Nothing to Be

Nothing to Say

No Think

No Type  -

I lie on my bed,

Tire without,

Am at the end,

Word weigh too heavy.

I weigh myself, my mind,

Tire too far,

Spread out ocean limits,

Our planet matter spread through space  -

Grateful for pain and pleasure

Vision, Grace, Movement, Gratitude

Self and Others

More

Reach

Stretch

The Body

Safe, Healthy, Eternal

Merge

Feel

Al right , that ' s enough for now , I hope you have a good life , you .

Engine - Neutral Milk Hotel, Additional Lyrics

"And sweet babies cry for the cool taste of milking

that milky delight that invited us all

and if there's a taste in this life more inviting

then wake up your windows and watch as those sweet babies

crawl away ay ay . . . "

from me and from you

Today ,

but tomorrow is a new day . . .

something

i forgot . .

oh well

[:

bye bye

now

So ... how do we

make Chuck E. Cheese

more Mom-friendly ?


I heard that on a commercial.

I thought it was weird, and I sang a song.

I shall never forget, probably.


I am so good at poems

I want to be a good boy . . .


I watched all the Purple Boys commercials

the first 5

twice today.

I drank about three or four glasses of wine

in the past two hours.


My mom and I are about to eat a pepperoni flatbread from Wal-Mart.


Okay,

The End

I love you,

Greg.


We will probably watch A Wrinkle in Time

but I hope we watch two or more episodes

of Baskets.

An Ongoing Letter to Myself in One Year (as of the Creation of This Title), March 2019, When 30 Years Will Have Passed Since My Conception

18:22

March Twenty---- The timer for the frozen dinners went off.

My mom and I ate Turkey, Stuffing, Mashed Potatoes, Gravy, Green Beans, and Carrots.

Marie Callender's

We watched A Man Called Ove.

It was good.


It's 20:54

March Twenty Sixth

Two Thousand Eighteen


Before dinner I ate Boom Chicka Pop, White Cheddar Popcorn.

I drank a glass of Paris Valley Road Cabernet Sauvignon.

I drank three more glasses.

I ate more Boom Chicka Pop after dinner.

I ate Thin Golden Oreos dipped in whole milk.


I felt pretty bad... gluttonous.


Three days ago I got A Stroll with William James from the central Austin Public Library.

I have read about 40 pages.

I think it is the most important part of my life right now. I love it.


I am looking forward to going to Andee and Aaron's house on Sunday, in 6 days.

I dreamed about Andee this morning. Part of it was bad, sexual. The last part, she wanted us to live together, and I was very excited, in love.

I think about Andee a lot.

I miss her every day.

I feel bad about my choices.

I have been almost crying more than once every day. Sometimes I let the tears go.

I cried a few hours ago when I read about Emily Dickinson's life.

i am going now

-----'-

April 16th

I want this to continue and end more hopefully.

I read about 5 pages of A Stroll with William James today.

I am sitting at a picnic table at Dick Nichols park near Oak Hill library. I really don't want to answer the interview questions that they will ask me. I hope we get along well. My main motivation is to avoid disappointing my mom, and I hope I only ever  lie to her about little details.

Also I want to be proud of myself for having enough will power to follow through with something difficult for me to do, going to a job interview being among the most difficult, top 5 probably......

Bye for now my love(:


It went well.

I want to be more relaxed and rational.

I'm probably not schizophrenic. But I like that word.

Random kind of:

Portabello mushrooms are good for growing hair on The backside of weird elephants.

And the diet mountain dew I ate in 4th grade is made of Siamese kittens


april 19th

I was just watching porn. I had resisted for almost a week. I started early this morning looking at photos of Julie again.

It is 6:58 a.m. Mom does not leave for work until 11.

Yesterday was all right and especially difficult:

I read about 10 pages, which is more than I've read in the past week I think.

The first thing I did, at about 5 am, was search for Elvis Perkins and read an article about him and his first album, on the Guardian online.

I liked it. He is more interesting than I could imagine. Strange family story


Aaron and Andee talked a lot to me while I was in their kitchen two days ago.

I felt bad because Aaron wants me to read more

and I have distracted myself constantly

starving my intelligence, stunting my healthy growth.

Trying to reply to him about history and failed governments, I stammered and sweated.

i like andee a lot

as i have told you.

i like aaron, but our friendship often reminds me of what i dislike about myself

but it feels better, more important, more true, real, eternal

what am i going on about

friends

meaning

purposes


life

laughing

person

poop

pips

tits

lips

hold me now in your long arms

dear judge
. . . .

i want to finish the new yorker shorts i began the past couple days

i just peed out by the south of my house

i felt good

my thoughts felt clear and honest

sun was peaking thru the trees

it is 7:71

no, it says 7:31


theory.


a ten thousand word thought


every tree on earth

every oxygen respiring plant cell

every nitrogen rich insect

every bedroom of every 30 year old father and his 9 year old daughter

every drop of coffee

every drop of tea

every bubble inside of a liquid or a human


Every possible arrangement of the bones and joints of living human skeletons


The End


Drops That Never Drip

From the Wholes of Bodies


April 28th 2018

I just heard the song Feeling Good about Feeling Good.

I just had a little diarrhea.

Less than an hour ago I signed up at BeTheMatch.org

I heard about it on Good Mythical Morning

I've been watching that show, catching up every week.

Also Podcasts, We're No Doctors, Ear Biscuits, Harmontown


I just saw Andee and Aaron and Malakai and Bobby.


Malakai's last soccer game.


Kind of strange

I lied to Aaron about how far I am in A Stroll with William James.

I said I am about 100 pages further than I am.


Mom said she might bring home Golden Chick, fried chicken, or catfish.


It is almost 5 p.m.


She has spent the day with Tim, Chelsea, and their kids.


After I got home from seeing Aaron and his family I drank Wine.

I read some of my journals from a few years ago, and looked at drawings I made.


I ate a slice of chaeddar cheese, ate a few M and Ms and a Brussels Peppridge Farms cookie and drank a little coke zero mixed with the wine, and I made hot chocolate with whipped cream, and i drank a little, I'll go drink more now. I waited for it to get less Hot.


hmm

boylife in america

cody chesnutt

me and you and everyone we know

hmm

fugazi

sweet and low


- -  May 2nd, 2018, 12:35 p.m.

I am going to post an exerpt of this letter onto this blog after I finish typing this. now.

i did it and i read it

i changed the title to try to better reflect my reality

i like the look of No Capital Letters and No Punctuating.

and i like that it takes less effort to type that way

and i like using caps and punks when i want to

i just ate two Reese's cups

they were okay

semi satisfying

a recent Gibi asmr video is on the TV now

She is testing markers

and whisper in . .

From Home by LCD Soundsystem :

Look around you

You're surrounded

It may get better


I changed that last line


The coffee is not even bitter

Be cause

what is the difference .


That was from Someone Great by them .

who is your favourite person who you have talked with directly voice to voice

I guess i mean someone who you have met in person


pick another person who you have never met or talked with


you want to meet them

eat food

make laugh

maybe make love

maybe make a child AKA human

walk around some buildings or shelter

talking

listening

smelling

pooping

cleaning

smiling

crying

Gibi and me

Gillian Jacobs and me

ACC computer lab girl and me


ten thousand futures

Bur gun dee

cooking

planning

watching

feeling

kissing

digesting

learning

now i am watching Good Mythical Morning


i'll turn it off now

i wanna read more Jacques Barzun and William James today

i recorded myself read out loud and talk for over one hour and thirty minutes today


now it is 1:19 p.m.

oh god . . . what am i going to do.

why am i so annoying

how did he do all those difficult and amazing works

how did he make them happen

how did he make himself

something of himself

someone

So Me O Nee

why do i get so tired so often

why do i feel so overwhelmed and unwilling


Restless . Bored . i r responsible

frustrate

Belong

Be Long

Be Ware

A Ware

What Is A Ware?

My dic sais Anything for Sale

or Pottery

Like Earthenware

Tupperware

but that is plastic

a name


I heard some good songs today

or i like them

i want to listen to more now

that is enough of typing this letter journal for today

bye bye for now


-


Hi, it is 9:42 a.m. on September 13th, 2,018 a.d.

I thought my mom might be dead, because it is about 2 hours later than she usually gets out of bed.

I looked at her a few minutes ago and she was breathing.

I am listening to "Si, Paloma" by Sun Kil Moon.

It is pretty good [:


I do Knot now.

I made a Mix up.

Re Verse

I have almost finished a cup of coffee.

I want to poop soon.

I will read Simmon's Cohen biography as I sit on Toilet.

I imagined going to Emergency Room or hospital after calling 911 about Mom not breathing or Whatever

What I will wear

What I will do first

Before

First Aid

Now the song "Alesund" is on

See what he says


I do knot know . . .

silly word

world Pup

Pooper

Dooper

I wish You were in the yester Hello World Yellow To be Name For them Ever to Hum Juicy Sons and Former

Taxxing

Wallabee, Wishes, My Keen Oliphant

They Rhythm Rim

I am not the Word on Their Pieces or Parts

They are a They

Not he she Biology

Whatever you say

is good

you are god

Let us go

Goes

With it

It goes

They go . . .

That is More than Enough


I am going to start a new Blog on this account

it is going to be a straightfoward Journal

clean, orderly Prose, not Poetry

I guess I will post song things and Poems on this Ego youthful blog.


My new blog is called

Good Enough to Know, Older Greg Blog


Okay, I want to go make it now, talk to you later, Babies, Nice people, homies, children, some holy light

Slow Morning

Slow tries to perform

but slows

too slowly.


It's not today ;  it's only this morning.

It's not today

it's only

This Morning

Seven days a week

Seven months a year

Seven years a life

I hope I do

not do anything .


You got to know everyone is singing a song

You got to leave everyone alone for a long time

Sort a Song

I am going to sleep tonight

with a bed under my head

with no body in sight

and I feel like a grave yard.


" You owe me two thousand

hours of work "

Oh, sorry.

I am out of stock.

" Did you call ahead to make sure? "

I did not.

" Well, you owe me everything anyway now. "

I cannot do this.

" Can you go to Jail for me? "

Yes, I can. Are you always asking me questions?

" No,

" This is just to warn you. You may start your work now. "

I am going home.

I spent the day hockey puck a wall on the sunny old sky

This was my job.

" Are you sure you are sorry

because the Weary Word

forsake the Dry Toad

The Wet baby frog on the Asphalt

Dear To Me

Will you take the number

write the name

save the wisdom

wish the Folders

They every Been Old Hold Body

Serious too fellow

Been Person Ship

Aloft Pen Hood

Personal Connection

Sort the non sense

Soul of the miracle

The End

.

Words , a L A D

Exxon   Valdeez    Valdez

Are you sure about that ?

Valdeez       Valdez

I'm sorry about that .

Dunston   checks  in ?

I don ' t    know any other names   !



Exploding   Whale ,   h uh  ?

It is a crime to be a monkey fighter

Nurture Walk Morning Song

I like your lips.
I like your tongue and teeth.
I like your larynx, pharynx and vocal folds.
I like your vulva.
I like your vagina, cervix and uterus.
I like your ovaries and fallopian tubes.
I like your heart.
I like your lungs.
I like your muscles, nerves and bones.
I like your neck, head and shoulders.
I like your arms, back, abdomen and legs.
I like your hands, feet, fingers and toes.
I like your mucus, sweat, blood and tears.
I like your skin and pores.

Okay, I like your organs, tissues, fluids, cells and chemicals.

I like your light and dark matter.
I like your energy.

I like your eyeballs, irises and pupils.
I like your lids and brow.
I like your forehead, cheeks and chin.
I like your ears.
I like your nose.
I like your hairs.
I like your clothes.
I like your Mind.
I like your thoughts.
I like your choices.
I like your chest.
I like your breasts.
I like your butt.
But I love you.
But I love you and I cannot stop.

You may think I may be sane;
I am planning a good escape
from this Rainy-day-fund existential Plane.

But I love you too.

A Song

Sunday After Noon

I don't even know about these longshoremen,

I don't even know about these longshoremen,

I don't even know about these longshoremen,

What do you think we should do?

I got a job. I got a job. I java job. I hava job. I godda job.

Monday Morning

Hey ,

Buffalo Bills ,

how can

you

train yourselves ?

prepare . to . relax . this . weakened

From the N H C

Atlantic - Caribbean Sea - Gulf of Mexico
Tropical Weather Outlook (en Español*)  200 PM EDT Fri Sep 7 2018 Tropical Weather Discussion 200 PM EDT Fri Sep 7 2018
Tropical Storm Florence  Buoys | Grids | Storm Archive ...FLORENCE POISED TO STRENGTHEN... ...THIS WEEKEND IS A GOOD TIME FOR INTERESTS ALONG THE U.S. EAST COAST TO REVIEW THEIR HURRICANE PLAN... 5:00 PM AST Fri Sep 7 Location: 24.8°N 52.5°W Moving: W at 8 mph Min pressure: 996 mb Max sustained: 65 mph Public Advisory #34  500 PM AST Aviso Publico* #34  500 PM AST Forecast Advisory #34  2100 UTC Forecast Discussion #34  500 PM AST Pronóstico Discusión* not available Wind Speed Probabilities #34  2100 UTC Wind Speed Probabilities Arrival Time of Winds Wind History Warnings/Cone Interactive Map Warnings/Cone Static Images Warnings and Surface Wind Key Messages Tropical Depression Gordon  Storm Archive The NHC has issued its final advisory on this system. Public Advisories from the Weather Prediction Center will provide updates as long as the system remains a flood threat. Public Advisory #22  400 PM CDT   Rainfall Potential Additional Information: River & Flood Forecasts Tropical Depression Eight  Buoys | Grids | Storm Archive ...DISTURBANCE DEVELOPS INTO A TROPICAL DEPRESSION... ...TROPICAL STORM CONDITIONS AND HEAVY RAINFALL EXPECTED IN PORTIONS OF THE CABO VERDE ISLANDS... 5:00 PM AST Fri Sep 7 Location: 13.2°N 18.6°W Moving: W at 10 mph Min pressure: 1002 mb Max sustained: 35 mph Public Advisory #2  500 PM AST Aviso Publico* not available Forecast Advisory #2  2100 UTC Forecast Discussion #2  500 PM AST Pronóstico Discusión* not available Wind Speed Probabilities #2  2100 UTC Wind Speed Probabilities Arrival Time of Winds Wind History Warnings/Cone Interactive Map Warnings/Cone Static Images Warnings and Surface Wind Tropical Depression Nine  Buoys | Grids | Storm Archive

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...FLORENCE'S WEAKENING APPEARS TO HAVE STOPPED FOR THE MOMENT... ...RESTRENGTHENING EXPECTED OVER THE WEEKEND...

The road of intentionality is paved with gold star stickers and ugly smiles.

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You can feel them , and you cannot feel their hair

You grow up with them , and they are not even there

I stood and felt the good part of Pain

9 - 1 - 2018 A. D.

854 pm

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What are you doing

rite now ? "

-

Am I doing anything ,

what is that supposed to mean .

I am annoying to say the least ,

when not Trying to be anything .

Leave it alone ;

( I lined through the next line )

Focus on what can be done .

of course I should ; of course I could ; how can I not ; how can I want something and its opposite ; I do not want to do something , but I do it ; I want to do something , but I do not ; I want to do nothing , but I can not

I got to be the Richest

most loved doctor alive

rite now . Past is different .

One billion Years of future . . .

Doing Something

Construct a Product

Practice Being Good at Making

Functional Beauty by Will

and All the help I can and

Should Get ,

The end

by bye .

Should Po Em

You should just do

Whatever they tell you you should do,

If they never tell you why,

If you think that they are correct.


If you wonder what you should do,

If you know what you can do,

You should do what you should do

Now, because there is no reason to wait.